Kristen
26-04-08, 11:05
Hi everyone, please help me if you can. I started suffering from serious panic attacks 3 years ago after we accidentally hit a guy on a bike with our car. We live in Beijing China and the traffic and sheer number of people make it very crazy driving around here.
Anyway, I think this triggered a PTSD reaction which led to frequent and horrible panic-trembling, extreme fear of the future, of dying, of life, of getting old, just mainly fear with cold tingles in my hands and lower back. Not too much depression at all but they were terrifying when they happened. I talked to a doctor, she put me on 50 mgs of Zoloft and the panic completely went away. I was happy and normal again and didn't get scared every time I saw a newspaper or watched the news. The main feeling I had was of desolation and pointlessness. I wasn't suicidal but I didn't want to live. I hate even thinking about how awful it felt. When the medication started working right away, I was so grateful and relieved. I stayed on Zoloft until I was 14 weeks pregnant with my son and then I tapered myself off it for about 2 or 3 weeks by reducing the dosage and then taking it every other day. I had no problem until my son was 6 weeks old and they came back with a vengance. I went back on 25 mg of zoloft, that worked for about two weeks and the panic came back so my doc upped my dose to 50 mg. I've been perfectly fine on that dosage until about 5 days ago. My son is now 9 months old so I haven't had a panic attack since he was 2 months old. Suddenly, I'm freaking out again and I think this time I have some depression. I'm so tired and just want to sleep, I'm nauseous and vomiting, I get these horrible shivers like I'm really cold and they turn into almost like convulsions and I can't stop them, I don't want to leave the house, can't cope with my baby, can't sleep because I start thinking and then I panic. It's a vicious circle and I'm so sick of it. Why is the zoloft suddenly not working? Is this a common occurance with these medications? what direction should i go in? I can't cope with thinking that I will feel like this forever and this is what my future has in store for me. Please help me with advice if you have any. Would a higher dose of zoloft help? Thanks
Anyway, I think this triggered a PTSD reaction which led to frequent and horrible panic-trembling, extreme fear of the future, of dying, of life, of getting old, just mainly fear with cold tingles in my hands and lower back. Not too much depression at all but they were terrifying when they happened. I talked to a doctor, she put me on 50 mgs of Zoloft and the panic completely went away. I was happy and normal again and didn't get scared every time I saw a newspaper or watched the news. The main feeling I had was of desolation and pointlessness. I wasn't suicidal but I didn't want to live. I hate even thinking about how awful it felt. When the medication started working right away, I was so grateful and relieved. I stayed on Zoloft until I was 14 weeks pregnant with my son and then I tapered myself off it for about 2 or 3 weeks by reducing the dosage and then taking it every other day. I had no problem until my son was 6 weeks old and they came back with a vengance. I went back on 25 mg of zoloft, that worked for about two weeks and the panic came back so my doc upped my dose to 50 mg. I've been perfectly fine on that dosage until about 5 days ago. My son is now 9 months old so I haven't had a panic attack since he was 2 months old. Suddenly, I'm freaking out again and I think this time I have some depression. I'm so tired and just want to sleep, I'm nauseous and vomiting, I get these horrible shivers like I'm really cold and they turn into almost like convulsions and I can't stop them, I don't want to leave the house, can't cope with my baby, can't sleep because I start thinking and then I panic. It's a vicious circle and I'm so sick of it. Why is the zoloft suddenly not working? Is this a common occurance with these medications? what direction should i go in? I can't cope with thinking that I will feel like this forever and this is what my future has in store for me. Please help me with advice if you have any. Would a higher dose of zoloft help? Thanks