mandie
29-04-08, 09:48
Hi
After having another panic attack on friday last week, i saw my gp who has signed me off for a week.
However yesterday i went into work because i want to try and face this, and i felt by taking time off i mite make the situation worse.
I got in and went upstairs and worked on my own in a room. I didnt feel to bad and for the first few hours i was coping
Then i got asked to come down and do some dictation cause secretary was off.
I went into the doctors room downstairs(i work in a medical centre) and started to take notes.
After a few minutes i started to think wot if i have an attack in his room in front of him. I started to feel the panic starting and then my heart started to beat fast, i got lightheaded and thought here we go again.
I excused myself and said i dont feel good i be back in a bit. I went ustairs to calm myself down and after a few minutes i was ok.
I then went in to see the doctor upstairs and told her what had happened. I gave her my doctors certificate and told her i wont be in the rest of the week.
I feel a failure now. I feel by taking time off its gonna make the situation worse when i have to go back. However i cant face how the place is making me feel when i am there. I dont even no why i have the attacks at work.
I wish i knew why they were happening. i have had anxiety for about 5 years but only recently the panic attacks have got so bad.
I am starting cbt group therapy next week, which im hoping will help but how
am i gonna go back to work?
I feel so embarassed that colleagues have seen me like this
Sorry this is so long, im just so upset and dont no how to cope
love mandie x
After having another panic attack on friday last week, i saw my gp who has signed me off for a week.
However yesterday i went into work because i want to try and face this, and i felt by taking time off i mite make the situation worse.
I got in and went upstairs and worked on my own in a room. I didnt feel to bad and for the first few hours i was coping
Then i got asked to come down and do some dictation cause secretary was off.
I went into the doctors room downstairs(i work in a medical centre) and started to take notes.
After a few minutes i started to think wot if i have an attack in his room in front of him. I started to feel the panic starting and then my heart started to beat fast, i got lightheaded and thought here we go again.
I excused myself and said i dont feel good i be back in a bit. I went ustairs to calm myself down and after a few minutes i was ok.
I then went in to see the doctor upstairs and told her what had happened. I gave her my doctors certificate and told her i wont be in the rest of the week.
I feel a failure now. I feel by taking time off its gonna make the situation worse when i have to go back. However i cant face how the place is making me feel when i am there. I dont even no why i have the attacks at work.
I wish i knew why they were happening. i have had anxiety for about 5 years but only recently the panic attacks have got so bad.
I am starting cbt group therapy next week, which im hoping will help but how
am i gonna go back to work?
I feel so embarassed that colleagues have seen me like this
Sorry this is so long, im just so upset and dont no how to cope
love mandie x