gary_2.0
30-04-08, 20:36
This might end up being a bit scatty. I'm just going to type as I go with no drafting.
Finally made the move to join up to a forum where I can chat to like minded nut-jobs, excuse me, fellow sufferers. I'm feeling pretty down at the moment and making light of serious situations helps, a little. I think. There are specific reasons why I feel particularly depressed right now and perhaps I'll bother you all with that a little later.
I've been suffering with anxiety for the past couple of years or so and this has resulted in agoraphobia. I no longer drive. Rarely go out and spend much of my time on this damned computer. Although I hope I use it in a mostly constructive way. Suffice to say that I'm not presently employed. And I'm single - obviously. Who wants to put up with this besides one's self? No that's not self-pity, just an observation gained from experience.
I don't usually feel sorry for myself as such because I'm naturally optimistic if anything, although very cynical too. A realist in other words. I do believe that tomorrow everything could change for the best but some days I just don't have the energy for that and today is most definately one of those.
But I must be positive and look ahead. One of the reasons I joined up was because I noticed members here have meet-ups. And in my area too. Of course there's no guarantee I'll be able to attend, presuming I'd be welcome as I'm new. Don't want to sound too presumptious! But it gives me something to aim for perhaps. Of course I hope to offer advice too, as well as receive it.
I used to work "In IT" (doesn't everyone?), and as a musician have played loads of gigs but for now I'm constructing a home studio to record my own work. I like to laugh. I like to smile. Even when I'm down I fight hard and if I can't I just sleep until it subsides.
I'm presently taking a 300mg daily dose of venlafaxine - "Hey any venlafaxine users out ther tonight?" I've also been drinking in the last week or two. Nothing excessive I think (he says taking another gulp of Tesco vintage claret), but it allows me to get off to sleep rather than just bloody lying there waiting for sleep to come.
Erm, is that enough that now?
Hello!
Finally made the move to join up to a forum where I can chat to like minded nut-jobs, excuse me, fellow sufferers. I'm feeling pretty down at the moment and making light of serious situations helps, a little. I think. There are specific reasons why I feel particularly depressed right now and perhaps I'll bother you all with that a little later.
I've been suffering with anxiety for the past couple of years or so and this has resulted in agoraphobia. I no longer drive. Rarely go out and spend much of my time on this damned computer. Although I hope I use it in a mostly constructive way. Suffice to say that I'm not presently employed. And I'm single - obviously. Who wants to put up with this besides one's self? No that's not self-pity, just an observation gained from experience.
I don't usually feel sorry for myself as such because I'm naturally optimistic if anything, although very cynical too. A realist in other words. I do believe that tomorrow everything could change for the best but some days I just don't have the energy for that and today is most definately one of those.
But I must be positive and look ahead. One of the reasons I joined up was because I noticed members here have meet-ups. And in my area too. Of course there's no guarantee I'll be able to attend, presuming I'd be welcome as I'm new. Don't want to sound too presumptious! But it gives me something to aim for perhaps. Of course I hope to offer advice too, as well as receive it.
I used to work "In IT" (doesn't everyone?), and as a musician have played loads of gigs but for now I'm constructing a home studio to record my own work. I like to laugh. I like to smile. Even when I'm down I fight hard and if I can't I just sleep until it subsides.
I'm presently taking a 300mg daily dose of venlafaxine - "Hey any venlafaxine users out ther tonight?" I've also been drinking in the last week or two. Nothing excessive I think (he says taking another gulp of Tesco vintage claret), but it allows me to get off to sleep rather than just bloody lying there waiting for sleep to come.
Erm, is that enough that now?
Hello!