Fed Up With Anxiety.

[pips]

Hi All,

I'm just worrying pondering and over thinking again! Surely not!

I recently had a holiday with Mum to Gran Caneria and thankfully twas successful. Tis just that my fear and panic never really left my side on holiday and part of me was wishing to be back home. We stayed a week where as my Mum was biting at the bit to stay longer I was quite eager to get home! Don't get me wrong I did enjoy myself. Although I missed my 3 dear puss cats madly.

Well we did a crazy thing yesterday and booked to do a tour for next April around America http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_15_54.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)taking in the Grand Canyon and Yosemite. I was fine and very excited then last night the reality hit me what the Bloody Hell have I done. http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_12_1.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/im/omg.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)16 days away from home yes 16! How will I ever cope how will my anxiety hold up. Plus its a 13 hour flight. Well I spent the whole night in such a state worrying panicking and wanting to cancel.

I know I will do it I have to force myself. How crazy does that sound having to force yourself on holiday!!!!! That’s the thing though why do I feel like this I don't want to get over there and wish I was back home. Else the holiday will feel so costly and wasted.

I just can't believe I have started worrying about it already it's a year away! I get so irritated with myself.http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_1_28.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

I just don't feel normal most people would be thrilled where as all I'm feeling at the moment is such dreadful fear. I feel such a freak.

For some reason when I go abroad I don't feel so in control. I'm not to bad when away in the UK. Does anyone else get this. I'm so fed up with these negative thoughtshttp://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_1_16.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)


So sorry to waffle & Thanks so much for reading

Take Care All,http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_2_104.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

Love & Wishes,http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/36/36_4_9.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

Pip's X X X X
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[marie1974]

hi pips wow all sounds very exciting, try to focus on all the reasons why you would love to go there and stick with those thoughts look up on the net the places there that you r going to visit and you will feel quite excited. then try to hold on to those thoughts everytime you feel like you are going to panic about it. sorry i cant be more help with this xxxx

[pips]

Thanks Donna for you great advice :yesyes: what a good idea I will definately do that.

Thanks again and Take Care,

Love Pip's X X:hugs:

[marie1974]

it may help looking at all the exciting stuff you will visit, i bet you will be fine though and sounds great, hugs xxxxx

[Blaise]

Hey Pip!
So there is more than one me! I just missed my best friends wedding to Mauritius because we booked 6 months ago and I was worrying about it daily until the day arrived and I let her down. Was furious with myself and gutted, made myself ill for a week. Let me tell you the feeling of not going is by far worse than going! Strange as it may sound. Dont think about the trip everyday and hype it up, otherwise ull end up like me, gutted. Think if the worst came to the worst (which we know it never will) you could always get a plane home!
Having said all this, im too scared to book a summer holiday now. BUT I WILL!

You have done the right thing, you are facing it head on

Sam xx

[pips]

Thanks Again Donna hunhttp://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/11/11_1_103.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

Take Care,

Love Pip's X X X X

[pips]

Hey Sam,

Thanks so much for your reply and Fab advice. :yesyes:

I'm so sorry for you that you missed your friends wedding. http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_1_22.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)

It's a no win situation really you feel anxious if you go but as you say worse if you don't. I know how you feel though when you don't go you feel like that nasty panic has won then don't you.:mad:


I think I'll say to My Panic well if you wanna come it's up to you but I'm going like or not!!!!!:winks:

My two main fears are 1) Leaving our three gorgeous cats with a cat sittter as they are so very precious to me.

2) Getting poorly whilst away :scared15: and spoiling the holiday especially with it being a touring hol.

Like you say I will try to not to think of it everyday as this only results in more worry.:wacko:

Thanks Again and I so hope you manage to book that Summer Holiday. http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/28/28_1_14.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/23_28_109.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZCxdm594YYGB)



Take Care,

Love Pip's X X