gary_2.0
06-05-08, 11:36
This is a rare event for me - thankfully. I'm in the process of having a panic attack at this very moment. I say rare because I'm careful not to put myself into situations that might trigger one. As most of us know this is how anxiety can mutate into agoraphobia, although I think I have a number of other contributing factors actually.
I really have no idea how to deal with this. It's all I can do to type. I can't really move otherwise because I'm rooted to spot with fear. Fear of what? F**k knows! It's illogical I'm aware of this. I'm also aware of the chemical process that';s going on right now and despite being able to think clearly even during moments of stress - if I'm alone that is as I am now. It's ironic that were there to be a real crisis, for example the house were on fire I know I'd be able to organise myself and others. But that's the overall problem I suppose isn't? It's the fact that I am experiencing panic but there is no way in which I can resolve the crisis. Because there isn't one. No Crisis in sight. If I had a mind to and could move from this spot I might even look to see if it had dropped down the back of the sofa. That's where everything else ends up.
I don't have any techniques for dealing with this other than getting my thoughts down in print. I used to flee back to my car in the early days of this condition and write. I always made sure I had pencil and paper, a drink, some sort of snack, pills for my migraine and various others bits and pieces that would cover me for all possible eventualities.
So that's it. I'm just riding this one through and typing and trying to distract myself but I have no techniques as I said before. The only 'Professional' help I've received other than from my GP and Psychiatrist which I had some while ago due to depression has been, in my view, somewhat lacking. Well meaning but basic. I'm being diplomatic here. I don't know why. Youngsters fresh out of college have nothing to teach me that I don't already know thank you. Sitting there while they go through their text book example of how to deal with a sufferer is not my view of moving things forward. Anyone who lives in the Gosport area will know the place I'm talking about I'm sure and I wonder if they've had similar experiences? I'd be interested to know. Let me add that I'm not the type to be dismissive of help. If there is an opportunity, an option to explore I will make sure I give it my full attention but frankly the local help is p*ss poor. If I'm sat there thinking to myself, "No that's not how you do it", or "Is your Mum coming to collect you dear, does she know where you are?", or "Come on let's move up a gear or two shall we? Stop idling and get moving".
Impatient I am not but I can easily differentiate between te wise and the mere willing and not very able.
OK, so maybe I'm rambling a bit here I'm not too sure. As I said before I just rtyint o get all my thought in print in an effect to distract me from what's really going, or that nothing is going on in fact.
Well done if you've made it down this far and thanks for reading. I'm going to have to lie down now I think because I'm not really feeling much better and this is turning into a bloody novel and well I don't know what else but the rhythm of the text would be uneven if I didn't add a third condition. See? Rambling!
I'll check back later and probably think. "Oh bloody hell I didn't say that did I". C'est la vie.
Not time for spelling or grammar check here either. Sorry about that. I'll be ok in a while no doubt but this is something I had to do. Now I must lie down, it's not getting any better.
I really have no idea how to deal with this. It's all I can do to type. I can't really move otherwise because I'm rooted to spot with fear. Fear of what? F**k knows! It's illogical I'm aware of this. I'm also aware of the chemical process that';s going on right now and despite being able to think clearly even during moments of stress - if I'm alone that is as I am now. It's ironic that were there to be a real crisis, for example the house were on fire I know I'd be able to organise myself and others. But that's the overall problem I suppose isn't? It's the fact that I am experiencing panic but there is no way in which I can resolve the crisis. Because there isn't one. No Crisis in sight. If I had a mind to and could move from this spot I might even look to see if it had dropped down the back of the sofa. That's where everything else ends up.
I don't have any techniques for dealing with this other than getting my thoughts down in print. I used to flee back to my car in the early days of this condition and write. I always made sure I had pencil and paper, a drink, some sort of snack, pills for my migraine and various others bits and pieces that would cover me for all possible eventualities.
So that's it. I'm just riding this one through and typing and trying to distract myself but I have no techniques as I said before. The only 'Professional' help I've received other than from my GP and Psychiatrist which I had some while ago due to depression has been, in my view, somewhat lacking. Well meaning but basic. I'm being diplomatic here. I don't know why. Youngsters fresh out of college have nothing to teach me that I don't already know thank you. Sitting there while they go through their text book example of how to deal with a sufferer is not my view of moving things forward. Anyone who lives in the Gosport area will know the place I'm talking about I'm sure and I wonder if they've had similar experiences? I'd be interested to know. Let me add that I'm not the type to be dismissive of help. If there is an opportunity, an option to explore I will make sure I give it my full attention but frankly the local help is p*ss poor. If I'm sat there thinking to myself, "No that's not how you do it", or "Is your Mum coming to collect you dear, does she know where you are?", or "Come on let's move up a gear or two shall we? Stop idling and get moving".
Impatient I am not but I can easily differentiate between te wise and the mere willing and not very able.
OK, so maybe I'm rambling a bit here I'm not too sure. As I said before I just rtyint o get all my thought in print in an effect to distract me from what's really going, or that nothing is going on in fact.
Well done if you've made it down this far and thanks for reading. I'm going to have to lie down now I think because I'm not really feeling much better and this is turning into a bloody novel and well I don't know what else but the rhythm of the text would be uneven if I didn't add a third condition. See? Rambling!
I'll check back later and probably think. "Oh bloody hell I didn't say that did I". C'est la vie.
Not time for spelling or grammar check here either. Sorry about that. I'll be ok in a while no doubt but this is something I had to do. Now I must lie down, it's not getting any better.