andie73
08-05-08, 15:14
Hi everyone
I had been doing ok with my anxieyt and panic in recent days but had aranged to meet my frind of 11 years at the hospital for a cooffee and since then I've been quite unsettled. Her mam is dying and as she hasn't left her bedside day or night for a week I thought a coffee in the hospital cafe would help get her to have a break.
I had no intentions of going to visit her mam as I didn't think I'd cope well and more importantly didn't think she would want lots of people trooping in. Anyway my friend said she wanted me to go up. So I felt obliged. It was pretty grim to say the least. She was drifting in and out of consciousness but she knew I was there. I stayed about twenty minutes and left to go home. I felt really quite calm considering I'm hospital phobic.
I just got home when I noticed water was gushing from the bottom of my car which is only 4 years old. I was gutted. My head went into a spin and I couldn't think straight. I couldn't even make tea for my husband so we ended up with pizza which I never do normally.
All my emotions came to the fore and I cried my eyes out. There's nothing seriously wrong with the car and it will be fixed tomorrow, I think it was a delayed reaction from my hospital visit. Does anyone agree? And does anyone get that too, ie get through a difficult situation really quite well then fall apart at the next tiniest little thing that goes wrong? I hope I'm not losing the plot again!!! Have felt a bit unreal and dizzy today and generally just on edge. My hubby is working till 9 and my dad's away so I am without my usual support network, so I'm feeling a bit vulnerable and scared of being alone. But I've got no choice but to ride it out. Please help.
Andrea xx:wacko:
I had been doing ok with my anxieyt and panic in recent days but had aranged to meet my frind of 11 years at the hospital for a cooffee and since then I've been quite unsettled. Her mam is dying and as she hasn't left her bedside day or night for a week I thought a coffee in the hospital cafe would help get her to have a break.
I had no intentions of going to visit her mam as I didn't think I'd cope well and more importantly didn't think she would want lots of people trooping in. Anyway my friend said she wanted me to go up. So I felt obliged. It was pretty grim to say the least. She was drifting in and out of consciousness but she knew I was there. I stayed about twenty minutes and left to go home. I felt really quite calm considering I'm hospital phobic.
I just got home when I noticed water was gushing from the bottom of my car which is only 4 years old. I was gutted. My head went into a spin and I couldn't think straight. I couldn't even make tea for my husband so we ended up with pizza which I never do normally.
All my emotions came to the fore and I cried my eyes out. There's nothing seriously wrong with the car and it will be fixed tomorrow, I think it was a delayed reaction from my hospital visit. Does anyone agree? And does anyone get that too, ie get through a difficult situation really quite well then fall apart at the next tiniest little thing that goes wrong? I hope I'm not losing the plot again!!! Have felt a bit unreal and dizzy today and generally just on edge. My hubby is working till 9 and my dad's away so I am without my usual support network, so I'm feeling a bit vulnerable and scared of being alone. But I've got no choice but to ride it out. Please help.
Andrea xx:wacko: