kitty
07-04-05, 11:52
Hi all,
Just to let you all know how i'm getting on. Well where do i start!
How about some good news and we will get to the bad later.
Well i have started to see this lad and he's so sweet and nice to me, he knows all about what i have been through and what i'm going through i thought he would run a mile when he found out that i was still self-harming but he hasn't he's there trying to help me through it. :D
I'm still seeing my mentor that i got assigned and superisingly enough the thought journals are kinda helping me but i try not to read them as if i do read them i will be in a bad mood and start to get down. I still have the occasional slip up now and then, God i really wish i could just stop self-harming, it's like i'm addicted to doing it. I feel really sick and tiered of this feeling that i have inside me, i just wish that if i cut deeper into my body then this feeling could just poor out of me and i would be better! [V]
Lets just face it i'm just screwed up wrong!
I feel really bad as i was doing reallly well with all the help of my mentor and it just feels like i have chucked all the Help and Advice that she has gave me back in her face!
Kitty :(
Just to let you all know how i'm getting on. Well where do i start!
How about some good news and we will get to the bad later.
Well i have started to see this lad and he's so sweet and nice to me, he knows all about what i have been through and what i'm going through i thought he would run a mile when he found out that i was still self-harming but he hasn't he's there trying to help me through it. :D
I'm still seeing my mentor that i got assigned and superisingly enough the thought journals are kinda helping me but i try not to read them as if i do read them i will be in a bad mood and start to get down. I still have the occasional slip up now and then, God i really wish i could just stop self-harming, it's like i'm addicted to doing it. I feel really sick and tiered of this feeling that i have inside me, i just wish that if i cut deeper into my body then this feeling could just poor out of me and i would be better! [V]
Lets just face it i'm just screwed up wrong!
I feel really bad as i was doing reallly well with all the help of my mentor and it just feels like i have chucked all the Help and Advice that she has gave me back in her face!
Kitty :(