sintek
21-05-08, 02:12
Hi. This is my first post on this site. I had my 2nd panic attack yesterday, may 19th, 2008. My first one was 1.5 yrs ago when my daughter was ill and had not yet had a biopsy for the lump on her neck. A few months later we found out our research was confirmed she had Hodgkins Lymphoma. Not only was my daughter an issue, my dad was seriously ill with a stroke and other health issues, my sister in law has terminal cancer (ovarian spread to lungs), and my other daughter albeit wasn't suicidal anymore that we noticed, wanted a baby with a nasty man almost twice her age who was involved with selling illicit drugs :O
Things just seemed piled up and I felt so responsible for all the problems in my family and their lives yet no one seemed to listen to me about how to maintain a healthy lifestyle and annual cleanses for blood, lymph and colon etc...
In the process of my being overwhelmed with "everyone else's problems" I started feeling more and more run down, fatiqued etc. I too however am recovering from severe hypothyroidism from two years ago when I ended up in the hospital (may of 06} and have been having difficulty getting my hormone replacement levels to where I am feeling myself again.
1.5 years ago I had a panic attack. I was driving home from work on the freeway and had to pull over for about 1/2 hr to regain my composure. I had another one yesterday, much more severe than the first one and today I still feel fatiqued from it with a splitting headace and many other symptoms. I am living with my two daughters, taking 24/7 care of my 8 month old granddaughter (since her birth) and doing all the chores around the home, I mean ALL the chores while my two girls work full time. One works full time and is also finishing up a bachelors degree (the one with remission of Hodgkins lymphoma)....
My younger daughter, the one who recently had the baby, isn't really very healthy and resists anything I tell her about getting healthy (even though I have two degrees in biology, ecology, zoology and natural history....). I find I have to basically try to ignore her nasty mouth and lack of education/mood swings and lack of care about how I feel.
Anyway, my panic attack yesterday left me basically feeling like a pile of quivering goo for a few hours. I felt like I was dying and almost went to the hospital until I realized most if not all of my symptoms were anxiety/panic attack. My father is on meds for them but he is in his mid 80s and is coming out of a stroke from last summer with all types of rehab, mostly physical and cognitive. My younger brother has actually also been on meds for panic attacks. I was always the Go Getter, stronger person in the family who seemed to get things done and never drank or self medicated, unlike my brothers and father. My mother is 87 and still golfs and never drank or smoked.
I guess I'm just flooded with a sense of over responsibility to my grand daughter, guilt about my children and their problems/illnesses etc. and my own recovery from thyroid disease which left me with many health issues I am trying to overcome with slow but good success.
I found this panic attack yesterday to be really debilitating. I took a valium an hour or so after I was able to calm down and that helped a little, made me sleepy. I don't get much sleep due to my taking care of this infant child, which is probably one of my biggest problems is lack of sleep.
I'm thinking of making a appt with my MD this week to discuss my problem with this last panic attack. It was HORRIBLE.
I am now really sad about Senator Kennedy and his brain tumor, of which I feel he most likely won't return to the senate, in that case, we will lose a very important person in the road to recovery after the Bush Junta here in the usa.
I am an atheist and live in Michigan. Single and taking care of family members in their times of need.
I am considering taking yoga classes at the cancer center for destressing as well as quitting my one cup of coffee every morning, even though it is organic coffee, I'll start drinking herbal teas again more often. I eat a good diet, organic, whole grains, very little meat, no dairy etc. I do however crave dark chocolate from time to time :O my only vice. I don't drink or smoke. ugh. All day long I've been studying up on Panic attacks/anxiety disorder to find ways to calm my nerves and recover from this horrible situation.
cheers,
Sintek
Things just seemed piled up and I felt so responsible for all the problems in my family and their lives yet no one seemed to listen to me about how to maintain a healthy lifestyle and annual cleanses for blood, lymph and colon etc...
In the process of my being overwhelmed with "everyone else's problems" I started feeling more and more run down, fatiqued etc. I too however am recovering from severe hypothyroidism from two years ago when I ended up in the hospital (may of 06} and have been having difficulty getting my hormone replacement levels to where I am feeling myself again.
1.5 years ago I had a panic attack. I was driving home from work on the freeway and had to pull over for about 1/2 hr to regain my composure. I had another one yesterday, much more severe than the first one and today I still feel fatiqued from it with a splitting headace and many other symptoms. I am living with my two daughters, taking 24/7 care of my 8 month old granddaughter (since her birth) and doing all the chores around the home, I mean ALL the chores while my two girls work full time. One works full time and is also finishing up a bachelors degree (the one with remission of Hodgkins lymphoma)....
My younger daughter, the one who recently had the baby, isn't really very healthy and resists anything I tell her about getting healthy (even though I have two degrees in biology, ecology, zoology and natural history....). I find I have to basically try to ignore her nasty mouth and lack of education/mood swings and lack of care about how I feel.
Anyway, my panic attack yesterday left me basically feeling like a pile of quivering goo for a few hours. I felt like I was dying and almost went to the hospital until I realized most if not all of my symptoms were anxiety/panic attack. My father is on meds for them but he is in his mid 80s and is coming out of a stroke from last summer with all types of rehab, mostly physical and cognitive. My younger brother has actually also been on meds for panic attacks. I was always the Go Getter, stronger person in the family who seemed to get things done and never drank or self medicated, unlike my brothers and father. My mother is 87 and still golfs and never drank or smoked.
I guess I'm just flooded with a sense of over responsibility to my grand daughter, guilt about my children and their problems/illnesses etc. and my own recovery from thyroid disease which left me with many health issues I am trying to overcome with slow but good success.
I found this panic attack yesterday to be really debilitating. I took a valium an hour or so after I was able to calm down and that helped a little, made me sleepy. I don't get much sleep due to my taking care of this infant child, which is probably one of my biggest problems is lack of sleep.
I'm thinking of making a appt with my MD this week to discuss my problem with this last panic attack. It was HORRIBLE.
I am now really sad about Senator Kennedy and his brain tumor, of which I feel he most likely won't return to the senate, in that case, we will lose a very important person in the road to recovery after the Bush Junta here in the usa.
I am an atheist and live in Michigan. Single and taking care of family members in their times of need.
I am considering taking yoga classes at the cancer center for destressing as well as quitting my one cup of coffee every morning, even though it is organic coffee, I'll start drinking herbal teas again more often. I eat a good diet, organic, whole grains, very little meat, no dairy etc. I do however crave dark chocolate from time to time :O my only vice. I don't drink or smoke. ugh. All day long I've been studying up on Panic attacks/anxiety disorder to find ways to calm my nerves and recover from this horrible situation.
cheers,
Sintek