Brooksie
22-05-08, 21:04
Hi
I have decided to post and join this website, I have had panic attacks for over 16 years all be it with a bit of a break where I felt I had overcome them. Now they're back (even though I keep telling myself it's lack of vit B or heart or brain!!) I know now while I type this that if it was anything else,
1) The doctor would've noticed on 1 of many blood tests I have had.
2) proberbly would've fainted by know
3) I wouldn't feel ok in the morning or evening when i'm relaxed!!
I can't work out whats causing this but it is incredibly real I actually think I am going to faint,die,never get over this, not going to get home in one piece, and so on....
I dont think my heart is beating that fast, it is higher than normal and if i can concentrate enough with deep breathing I start to relax, but as soon as my mind wonders for a split second, I'm back to where I started! I have a job in the public eye which comes with it's own pressure, it's a job I wanted since I was a kid I pretend I dont feel the pressure but I know I do. A lot of my panic happens at work which really does get in the way. I don't want to have a conversation with anyone, I just want to be left alone when i am in an attack. The thought of going out at night and socialising fills me with dread, and when I'm in a hotel waiting to meet up with people or wait for my taxi I will normally panic! When I'm there though I normally have a good night, a glass of red wine normally helps!
I have a wonderful wife (she doesn't understand this or really believe in it ..but when you try to explain it to someone it does sound a bit wierd!!) and 3 beautiful children. I have nothing to fear, I have always had a bit of a fear of dying or gettin cancer/aids/brain tumours and so on...not all at the same
time of course..:unsure:
Maybe its a sense of what I could lose, I don't know. Doctor has referred me to counseller so I will see what that brings. She also gave me beta blockers but didnt really think they made a difference, is anyone else on them??
Thanks for reading
B
I have decided to post and join this website, I have had panic attacks for over 16 years all be it with a bit of a break where I felt I had overcome them. Now they're back (even though I keep telling myself it's lack of vit B or heart or brain!!) I know now while I type this that if it was anything else,
1) The doctor would've noticed on 1 of many blood tests I have had.
2) proberbly would've fainted by know
3) I wouldn't feel ok in the morning or evening when i'm relaxed!!
I can't work out whats causing this but it is incredibly real I actually think I am going to faint,die,never get over this, not going to get home in one piece, and so on....
I dont think my heart is beating that fast, it is higher than normal and if i can concentrate enough with deep breathing I start to relax, but as soon as my mind wonders for a split second, I'm back to where I started! I have a job in the public eye which comes with it's own pressure, it's a job I wanted since I was a kid I pretend I dont feel the pressure but I know I do. A lot of my panic happens at work which really does get in the way. I don't want to have a conversation with anyone, I just want to be left alone when i am in an attack. The thought of going out at night and socialising fills me with dread, and when I'm in a hotel waiting to meet up with people or wait for my taxi I will normally panic! When I'm there though I normally have a good night, a glass of red wine normally helps!
I have a wonderful wife (she doesn't understand this or really believe in it ..but when you try to explain it to someone it does sound a bit wierd!!) and 3 beautiful children. I have nothing to fear, I have always had a bit of a fear of dying or gettin cancer/aids/brain tumours and so on...not all at the same
time of course..:unsure:
Maybe its a sense of what I could lose, I don't know. Doctor has referred me to counseller so I will see what that brings. She also gave me beta blockers but didnt really think they made a difference, is anyone else on them??
Thanks for reading
B