CNY84
24-05-08, 04:01
Hello everyone-
I'm new to this website and am hoping that someone, somewhere can help me out a little bit.
I'm 23 years old, a store manager for a fairly small store and attend college part-time. 10 years ago I was diagnosed with panic disorder and to this day no one has ever been able to figure out what the trigger was. I started seeing a psychiatrist who put me on prozac and clonopin. It was a difficult struggle for me at first. I was afraid to go to school, but my mom forced me to go and if she hadn't she would've been an idiot! Eventhough I hated her at the time for it, I'm so glad she didn't give in to my crying and complaining. I even developed random phobias that had never bothered me before: heights and vomiting.
After a year of having the panic disorder my life finally started to feel back to normal, with the exception that I still had my phobias. The rest of high school went by, for the most part, smoothly. I even got off the anti-depressant and was rarely taking my clonopin. That's how well I was doing. I hardly ever had any anxiety problems and up until about 2 months ago, I thought I had gotten rid of it completely.
So wrong! I started a new relationship with someone and I thought it would be responsible of me to get a routine HIV test, just for peace of mind. Now, I knew very well that I would test negative, but in the 3 weeks that I had to wait to get the results back, my anxiety slowly started taking a firm grip on me. Constant worrying about "what if" those results are positive. I kept telling myself that soon as I got the results my anxiety would subside and everything would go back to normal.
Wrong again. Like I said I knew what the results would be. So when I found out I was negative it was like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Two nights later I had a full-blown panic attack.
The thing is, I hadn't had a panic attack in at least 7 years. 7 years with NO anxiety, NO panic attacks, NOTHING. And suddenly, I'm having one. I couldn't remember what to do. I used to have a ton of tricks up my sleeve to calm myself down. Like all attacks, it eventually went away and as of today, I haven't had another one. But what won't go away is this constant feeling of anxiety. It's really starting to interfere with my life and most nights I can't even fall asleep right away. I'm currently in the middle of searching for a psychologist that can help me out with some of these issues.
That's all for the intro. I'll be probably be posting...a lot! I have a lot of questions and need a lot of advice.
Thanks for reading :)
Chrissy
I'm new to this website and am hoping that someone, somewhere can help me out a little bit.
I'm 23 years old, a store manager for a fairly small store and attend college part-time. 10 years ago I was diagnosed with panic disorder and to this day no one has ever been able to figure out what the trigger was. I started seeing a psychiatrist who put me on prozac and clonopin. It was a difficult struggle for me at first. I was afraid to go to school, but my mom forced me to go and if she hadn't she would've been an idiot! Eventhough I hated her at the time for it, I'm so glad she didn't give in to my crying and complaining. I even developed random phobias that had never bothered me before: heights and vomiting.
After a year of having the panic disorder my life finally started to feel back to normal, with the exception that I still had my phobias. The rest of high school went by, for the most part, smoothly. I even got off the anti-depressant and was rarely taking my clonopin. That's how well I was doing. I hardly ever had any anxiety problems and up until about 2 months ago, I thought I had gotten rid of it completely.
So wrong! I started a new relationship with someone and I thought it would be responsible of me to get a routine HIV test, just for peace of mind. Now, I knew very well that I would test negative, but in the 3 weeks that I had to wait to get the results back, my anxiety slowly started taking a firm grip on me. Constant worrying about "what if" those results are positive. I kept telling myself that soon as I got the results my anxiety would subside and everything would go back to normal.
Wrong again. Like I said I knew what the results would be. So when I found out I was negative it was like a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Two nights later I had a full-blown panic attack.
The thing is, I hadn't had a panic attack in at least 7 years. 7 years with NO anxiety, NO panic attacks, NOTHING. And suddenly, I'm having one. I couldn't remember what to do. I used to have a ton of tricks up my sleeve to calm myself down. Like all attacks, it eventually went away and as of today, I haven't had another one. But what won't go away is this constant feeling of anxiety. It's really starting to interfere with my life and most nights I can't even fall asleep right away. I'm currently in the middle of searching for a psychologist that can help me out with some of these issues.
That's all for the intro. I'll be probably be posting...a lot! I have a lot of questions and need a lot of advice.
Thanks for reading :)
Chrissy