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28-05-08, 12:12
Hi, my name's Siobhan and although I'm certainly not new to this forum I haven't posted here for some time.
Well the thing is I'm starting to have a relapse which happens every 2 or 3 years and usually lasts for several months at least. And yep, the usual story, I get a brand new list of symptoms/emotions/obsessions. so this is what's going on for me at the moment.
Been working for the last 15 months as a community carer and although I love my job, Ive lately started feeling that I could benefit from having my own carer!! I recently started suffering from chronic IBS (Used to get severe gastritis) and feeling very stressed out. Then a couple of weeks ago had my first serious panic attack for over year- although I still have ongoing low-level anxiety attacks which I've learnt to live with and can manage quite happily. Anyway I had this weird feeling that I had no strength in my stomach and kind of felt really weak around my torso which sent me into major panic mode. Well got over that one but since have been feeling achy, fluey, just generally unwell. Last night, was feeling grotty and then began feeling what I can only describe as confused, agitated and disorientated. This led to my mind racing and a feeling that I really find hard to describe. I felt like my brain was going to short circuit. I felt utterly mad and that I had NO control over my mind or feelings. I felt doom but not in an "I'm going to die" way. But that I was really going to crack up. I couldn't control my thoughts and that led to the most horrible panic I've ever had. Took me a good 20 minutes to get over the worst of it. Needless to say I've spent the morning googling psychosis and decided to log on here and have seen some similar episodes.
I really needed to get that off my chest and damn, it feels good. :)
It's great to back! (Although I wish the circumstances were better!)
Siobhan x
Well the thing is I'm starting to have a relapse which happens every 2 or 3 years and usually lasts for several months at least. And yep, the usual story, I get a brand new list of symptoms/emotions/obsessions. so this is what's going on for me at the moment.
Been working for the last 15 months as a community carer and although I love my job, Ive lately started feeling that I could benefit from having my own carer!! I recently started suffering from chronic IBS (Used to get severe gastritis) and feeling very stressed out. Then a couple of weeks ago had my first serious panic attack for over year- although I still have ongoing low-level anxiety attacks which I've learnt to live with and can manage quite happily. Anyway I had this weird feeling that I had no strength in my stomach and kind of felt really weak around my torso which sent me into major panic mode. Well got over that one but since have been feeling achy, fluey, just generally unwell. Last night, was feeling grotty and then began feeling what I can only describe as confused, agitated and disorientated. This led to my mind racing and a feeling that I really find hard to describe. I felt like my brain was going to short circuit. I felt utterly mad and that I had NO control over my mind or feelings. I felt doom but not in an "I'm going to die" way. But that I was really going to crack up. I couldn't control my thoughts and that led to the most horrible panic I've ever had. Took me a good 20 minutes to get over the worst of it. Needless to say I've spent the morning googling psychosis and decided to log on here and have seen some similar episodes.
I really needed to get that off my chest and damn, it feels good. :)
It's great to back! (Although I wish the circumstances were better!)
Siobhan x