Butterflygirl
30-05-08, 02:20
I thought I was alone. I am sure many of you have said the same thing. I have been like this since a teenager, reading medical books and thinking I had something horrible. THEN the Internet came and all of this information out there can drive anyone crazy. I found myself getting really bad when my mother passed away from pancreatic cancer two years ago. Since then I have been horrified of getting cancer myself. I am only 37 years old, but I fear I will get cancer. Right now I have an ovarian cyst. I went to the ER on Wednesday and they did tests. I even had a huge panic attach and thought I was dying from a heart attack. I went to the gyno. yesterday and he said it is not cancer. BUT, I still do not believe him. I have spent half the day today looking into ovarian cancer. I will be seeing the gyno again on Thursday for a recheck, but I wish I could see him everyday. I have been making myself sick and I actually feel sick over this. I could not even drive myself home today from the store because I was about to have a panic attack in the car.
I must say though. I do feel better now that I have read many of your stories. I feel better that I am not alone and there are others like me. I actually do not feel as sick now - so thanks guys. <taking a deep breath>
I must say though. I do feel better now that I have read many of your stories. I feel better that I am not alone and there are others like me. I actually do not feel as sick now - so thanks guys. <taking a deep breath>