andymon69
04-06-08, 02:08
ive been suffering from, Anxiety, panic attacks & depression for what must be thirteen years now. People ask me what sparked it of but I can only guess. Sometimes I struggle, sometimes im ok. but it is always there in the background. I know there is people out there alot worse than me , & for that im thankfull, but it can be an up hill struggle sometimes. I must of been to the doctors around half a dozen times in 13 yrs ( I only go when its really bad ). I usally get fobbed off with the usuall drugs & a sick note. I sometimes think that just becuase im not
seen as a danger to myself & others & not being some how sectioned that im not really being taken seriously. For the last six months Ive been on a CBT course. But she tells me that my thoughts & anxiety are irrational, but ive always known that. I just feel that the NHS have let me down. I was off work twelve months ago for a month with the usuall. Work was great, within two months I was seeing a psychothearapist I was told that I could see him once a month for as long as I wanted & it was great, for the first time I thought that I was getting a " handle" on things. But now ive moved on from that job so I now no longer see him.
At the same time through my doctor he got me a cousoller ( waiting time 6 weeks ), who prescribed a course of CBT ( waiting time 6 months ) its been largely ok, but all she does is tell me things that I already know. Ive been told that I get sixteen sessions & thats it. Last month we had a "reiview " where we discussed how the treatment has "helped me " I was some what bemussed & just told her stuff that I thought that she wanted to hear. Now I feel we are racing to the finishing line, I see her 2 weeks from the " reivew " then 1 month after that & then 3 months after that. Maybe im wrong but im already bored with it. apart from telling her the usuall crap whitch is going on in my life I have run out of things to say to her, im finding that im regurgatating stuff that my old psychotherapist has told me irrespective weather a belive it or not. Im just a bit disappointed in it all. What happens when the course is over is that it is it a case of hallohuha im cured cos I dont feel that way.
All I need sometimes is someone to talk to & to listen whats wrong with that. Anyway im trying to pack my life with positive stuff witch in the first time for a long time im am looking forward to, ive achived this through my own endeavors inspite of the medical proffesion who I belive in the last 13 yrs have let me down.
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seen as a danger to myself & others & not being some how sectioned that im not really being taken seriously. For the last six months Ive been on a CBT course. But she tells me that my thoughts & anxiety are irrational, but ive always known that. I just feel that the NHS have let me down. I was off work twelve months ago for a month with the usuall. Work was great, within two months I was seeing a psychothearapist I was told that I could see him once a month for as long as I wanted & it was great, for the first time I thought that I was getting a " handle" on things. But now ive moved on from that job so I now no longer see him.
At the same time through my doctor he got me a cousoller ( waiting time 6 weeks ), who prescribed a course of CBT ( waiting time 6 months ) its been largely ok, but all she does is tell me things that I already know. Ive been told that I get sixteen sessions & thats it. Last month we had a "reiview " where we discussed how the treatment has "helped me " I was some what bemussed & just told her stuff that I thought that she wanted to hear. Now I feel we are racing to the finishing line, I see her 2 weeks from the " reivew " then 1 month after that & then 3 months after that. Maybe im wrong but im already bored with it. apart from telling her the usuall crap whitch is going on in my life I have run out of things to say to her, im finding that im regurgatating stuff that my old psychotherapist has told me irrespective weather a belive it or not. Im just a bit disappointed in it all. What happens when the course is over is that it is it a case of hallohuha im cured cos I dont feel that way.
All I need sometimes is someone to talk to & to listen whats wrong with that. Anyway im trying to pack my life with positive stuff witch in the first time for a long time im am looking forward to, ive achived this through my own endeavors inspite of the medical proffesion who I belive in the last 13 yrs have let me down.
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