jellybean43
05-06-08, 16:31
Hi
I have definately been feeling a lot better than when i first came on these boards wayyyy back in March.I try to keep positive and I have read loads of stuff on HA plus I am waiting for CBT.
Today though I woke up with that feeling of dread as soon as i opened my eyes. My heart was pounding too!! I got up and told myself to get a grip!!I do however have PMT which is definately a big downside with this anxiety!!!!!I have been out on a 4 mile walk with the dog and OH and we stopped in the town for a cup of tea.When i went to the toilets i started looking at the whites of my eyes and convinced myself they had a yellow tinge(yeah i know i am going crazy!!!).
I kept asking OH all the way home if they looked ok and of course he said yes. When i get in they look perfectly ok in the light here!!!Why the heck do i do this to myself???I mean, i never used to check the whites of my eyes!!!And, I know that most ppl have a slight yellow tinge in the corner if they roll their eyes from side to side---mine have been like that since i was in my 20s and I am still here!!!
I am sooo fed up with this HA.Plus today i am feeling tired----and i know full well that a 4 mile walk at 43 in this heat would leave anyone feeling a bit tired!!!I am just sooo annoyed with myself. I had convinced myself that the whites had gone yellow and therefore my liver has been affected by lymphoma(as most of you know that is my main worry!!!).
Please can someone tell me i am ridiculous. I am driving myself loony---yet some days i am "back to how i used to be---normal".
Also forgot to add that i am due to start taking PROPRANALOL next week and I am sooo worried about side effects. I told hubbie only yesterday that i am feeling better and that i dont need them-----and he laughed!!!!Cos today here I am feeling rubbish again!!!
x
xxx
I have definately been feeling a lot better than when i first came on these boards wayyyy back in March.I try to keep positive and I have read loads of stuff on HA plus I am waiting for CBT.
Today though I woke up with that feeling of dread as soon as i opened my eyes. My heart was pounding too!! I got up and told myself to get a grip!!I do however have PMT which is definately a big downside with this anxiety!!!!!I have been out on a 4 mile walk with the dog and OH and we stopped in the town for a cup of tea.When i went to the toilets i started looking at the whites of my eyes and convinced myself they had a yellow tinge(yeah i know i am going crazy!!!).
I kept asking OH all the way home if they looked ok and of course he said yes. When i get in they look perfectly ok in the light here!!!Why the heck do i do this to myself???I mean, i never used to check the whites of my eyes!!!And, I know that most ppl have a slight yellow tinge in the corner if they roll their eyes from side to side---mine have been like that since i was in my 20s and I am still here!!!
I am sooo fed up with this HA.Plus today i am feeling tired----and i know full well that a 4 mile walk at 43 in this heat would leave anyone feeling a bit tired!!!I am just sooo annoyed with myself. I had convinced myself that the whites had gone yellow and therefore my liver has been affected by lymphoma(as most of you know that is my main worry!!!).
Please can someone tell me i am ridiculous. I am driving myself loony---yet some days i am "back to how i used to be---normal".
Also forgot to add that i am due to start taking PROPRANALOL next week and I am sooo worried about side effects. I told hubbie only yesterday that i am feeling better and that i dont need them-----and he laughed!!!!Cos today here I am feeling rubbish again!!!
x
xxx