Janieb
06-06-08, 11:24
Today I am feeling useless, like I have been tossed into the reject bin of humanity.
I can't find another job, my one at current causes me a lot of anx and panic, I am not mad about it but dispite my endless job hunting no leads and I need the money.
And something new has come about which is so seriously odd!!! I was out last night, and though I am married I do like a bit of attention now and again, so I was being a bit flirtatious with a guy from work and he slammed me down needless to say after a crap day of constant rejection from all types of things last nights one was like the last straw that broke the camels back.....and I started to think....what is wrong with me. Am a defective or faulty do people just not like me, why am I so different, why can't I just slot in and be normal!!
it's a horrable useless feeling just a horrable churning in my tummy and I want to go to bed and never wake up.
Just had to rant, and put it down on "paper"
I can't find another job, my one at current causes me a lot of anx and panic, I am not mad about it but dispite my endless job hunting no leads and I need the money.
And something new has come about which is so seriously odd!!! I was out last night, and though I am married I do like a bit of attention now and again, so I was being a bit flirtatious with a guy from work and he slammed me down needless to say after a crap day of constant rejection from all types of things last nights one was like the last straw that broke the camels back.....and I started to think....what is wrong with me. Am a defective or faulty do people just not like me, why am I so different, why can't I just slot in and be normal!!
it's a horrable useless feeling just a horrable churning in my tummy and I want to go to bed and never wake up.
Just had to rant, and put it down on "paper"