jayne1982
07-06-08, 22:46
Hi guys,
I hope everyone is doing okay this evening.
I've been on and off this site all day, and thought I would post a message to see if anyone has any thoughts/advice.
I posted my introductory message on 15th May, because I had had a breakdown. My GP told me I had had a kind of trauma after meeting up with an ex-boyfriend (who had been quite abusive and nasty), which meant that I had a prolonged anxiety attack. I even began questioning my current relationship, which has always been amazing. I had to had a few days off work, because of the anxiety of the situation. But as the doctor had told me, I came out of it almost as quickly as I had gone in.
I posted a message to another forum member on 23rd May who had had similar experiences, saying that I was feeling back to my normal self. It felt awesome! The past month has been amazing!
However, for the last couple of days, I have slipped right back into the old state. I have massive anxiety and I'm having those same feelings of doubt. Why is anyone with anybody when relationships are so fragile?
I know this sounds incredibly depressing. What's important, is that I know how I'm feeling now isn't reality. I know I love my boyfriend and I want to be with him. I have this terrible self-destructive streak though, which means I'm ruminating, trying to convince myself I need to be by myself. This is causing agonising anxiety.
I know this has come on, because I was terrified I would regress back to this at some point, especially when hormonal (which I definitely am).
I am determined not to let this ruin my life. I'm terrified of doing something impulsive I know I'll regret forever. I know I'll feel much better in a few days, just like last time. I just feel quite alone just now, and I would be SO grateful to anyone who has any thoughts.
Thank you, I hope you all have a lovely weekend.
xxxx
I hope everyone is doing okay this evening.
I've been on and off this site all day, and thought I would post a message to see if anyone has any thoughts/advice.
I posted my introductory message on 15th May, because I had had a breakdown. My GP told me I had had a kind of trauma after meeting up with an ex-boyfriend (who had been quite abusive and nasty), which meant that I had a prolonged anxiety attack. I even began questioning my current relationship, which has always been amazing. I had to had a few days off work, because of the anxiety of the situation. But as the doctor had told me, I came out of it almost as quickly as I had gone in.
I posted a message to another forum member on 23rd May who had had similar experiences, saying that I was feeling back to my normal self. It felt awesome! The past month has been amazing!
However, for the last couple of days, I have slipped right back into the old state. I have massive anxiety and I'm having those same feelings of doubt. Why is anyone with anybody when relationships are so fragile?
I know this sounds incredibly depressing. What's important, is that I know how I'm feeling now isn't reality. I know I love my boyfriend and I want to be with him. I have this terrible self-destructive streak though, which means I'm ruminating, trying to convince myself I need to be by myself. This is causing agonising anxiety.
I know this has come on, because I was terrified I would regress back to this at some point, especially when hormonal (which I definitely am).
I am determined not to let this ruin my life. I'm terrified of doing something impulsive I know I'll regret forever. I know I'll feel much better in a few days, just like last time. I just feel quite alone just now, and I would be SO grateful to anyone who has any thoughts.
Thank you, I hope you all have a lovely weekend.
xxxx