smbljb
10-06-08, 19:15
Hi
I've posted here a few times for some problems I've had over the past few months but this is about my 13 year old son.
On Thursday last week I was called out to pick him up from school and he said he had a tummy bug. We kept him off ~Friday as a precaution and yesyerday, after being fine for the weekened he started to comaplin again about feeling sick. He went to school and this morning was crying again so we kept him off. He says that he has constant thoughts about killing himself and that he finds these thoughts disturbing and upsetting. He's been crying almost all day and all day I've been trying to make him feel better and we have talked quite a lot.
He said it would be easier if he wrote it down, he wrote this:
'When I finished on the toilet I looked at the tap and in my head I said if its hot kill myself and then I looked at the radiator and said the same thing it just popped up in my head, I don't want to kill myself though and it upset me
'
I really don't know what to do, so far I've asked him if it's his own voice and that he is just thinking this, as opposed to someone elses vooice telling him to do it and he said he thought it was his voice. I've also asked him if he has thought of any ways he might do it to see if he has gone any further or actually planned anything. He says that he hasn't but is scared he will. I've also explained to him that sometimes we all have thoughts that are kind of random and not really under our concious control and the difference is that we don't have to act on anything we think.
He also said that he calls us names in his head when we talk to him, swear words that also upset him.
He is still extremely upset and is still crying a lot - we're scared of leaving him alone and are both scared to death to be honest and would appreciate any help or thoughts from anyone. I'll check back regularly ...
I've posted here a few times for some problems I've had over the past few months but this is about my 13 year old son.
On Thursday last week I was called out to pick him up from school and he said he had a tummy bug. We kept him off ~Friday as a precaution and yesyerday, after being fine for the weekened he started to comaplin again about feeling sick. He went to school and this morning was crying again so we kept him off. He says that he has constant thoughts about killing himself and that he finds these thoughts disturbing and upsetting. He's been crying almost all day and all day I've been trying to make him feel better and we have talked quite a lot.
He said it would be easier if he wrote it down, he wrote this:
'When I finished on the toilet I looked at the tap and in my head I said if its hot kill myself and then I looked at the radiator and said the same thing it just popped up in my head, I don't want to kill myself though and it upset me
'
I really don't know what to do, so far I've asked him if it's his own voice and that he is just thinking this, as opposed to someone elses vooice telling him to do it and he said he thought it was his voice. I've also asked him if he has thought of any ways he might do it to see if he has gone any further or actually planned anything. He says that he hasn't but is scared he will. I've also explained to him that sometimes we all have thoughts that are kind of random and not really under our concious control and the difference is that we don't have to act on anything we think.
He also said that he calls us names in his head when we talk to him, swear words that also upset him.
He is still extremely upset and is still crying a lot - we're scared of leaving him alone and are both scared to death to be honest and would appreciate any help or thoughts from anyone. I'll check back regularly ...