serr1340
15-04-05, 20:52
Hello all
It has been a while since I have shared on this site. I have been doing fine. I have had excellent days and so-so days. This week on Tuesday when I got up to go to work I felt somewhat weird but I ignored it. I came to work but felt sluggish and edgy. Around 11:30 AM I was working on my computer when all of a sudden my left arm felt weird, very heavy and I felt a pressure in the elbow area (I don't have arthritis), this had never happened before so I started feeling anxiety right away, my stomach turned, I felt naseaus, dizzy, my heart started racing. I thought, "Okay, it is only a feeling, I am okay, it will go away"> I went to the restroom and came back to my desk. The feelings subsided a little but I felt so tired all of a sudden I decided to go home. All this time I am MAD :( at myself for continuing to have anxiety. I am doing the self-talk on my drive home but I decided to call my doctor because the sensation on my left arm had not left. She went through the usual questions and told me to take some ibuprofen and if it did not go away, I should go to the ER. I got home, took the meds and took a short nap. My sister called me and I told her what happened, she scared me cause she told me that the syptoms could be signs of mini-strokes! Well that got me going and scared and depressed. I told my husband and he took me to the ER. We were there for over 3 hours and I was give a clean bill of health. Perfect heart, no diabetes, etc. That gave me peace of mind. It has now been 3 days since then and I still feel edgy, like I am going to have an anxiety attack and I am scared of it but at the same time I want it to happen to just get it over with. I am afraid of loosing my mind, of being hospitalized, dying, leaving my children, who will care for them. Of course I know none of this will happen, it is only the scary thoughts. I try to not entertain them and let them float away from me. I feel that I handled this last episode alot better but I am still scared of having another one. What if I never get better, why can't I be strong, why won't this go away. I worry about my son because he is so much like me and he has learned the worried feelings from me and he is only 10 years old. Now he is going to a therapist, at least I am getting him help right now. I can't wait til the end of this work day so that I can go home. [V] I hate this! I also see a therapist and psychiatrist for medication but I am tired of the meds! Has anyone tried the natural supplement called Serenity? One person I chat with raves about it but the scariness in my won't let me try it. Thank you for letting me share and I apologize for this being so long.
Take care
Marilu
It has been a while since I have shared on this site. I have been doing fine. I have had excellent days and so-so days. This week on Tuesday when I got up to go to work I felt somewhat weird but I ignored it. I came to work but felt sluggish and edgy. Around 11:30 AM I was working on my computer when all of a sudden my left arm felt weird, very heavy and I felt a pressure in the elbow area (I don't have arthritis), this had never happened before so I started feeling anxiety right away, my stomach turned, I felt naseaus, dizzy, my heart started racing. I thought, "Okay, it is only a feeling, I am okay, it will go away"> I went to the restroom and came back to my desk. The feelings subsided a little but I felt so tired all of a sudden I decided to go home. All this time I am MAD :( at myself for continuing to have anxiety. I am doing the self-talk on my drive home but I decided to call my doctor because the sensation on my left arm had not left. She went through the usual questions and told me to take some ibuprofen and if it did not go away, I should go to the ER. I got home, took the meds and took a short nap. My sister called me and I told her what happened, she scared me cause she told me that the syptoms could be signs of mini-strokes! Well that got me going and scared and depressed. I told my husband and he took me to the ER. We were there for over 3 hours and I was give a clean bill of health. Perfect heart, no diabetes, etc. That gave me peace of mind. It has now been 3 days since then and I still feel edgy, like I am going to have an anxiety attack and I am scared of it but at the same time I want it to happen to just get it over with. I am afraid of loosing my mind, of being hospitalized, dying, leaving my children, who will care for them. Of course I know none of this will happen, it is only the scary thoughts. I try to not entertain them and let them float away from me. I feel that I handled this last episode alot better but I am still scared of having another one. What if I never get better, why can't I be strong, why won't this go away. I worry about my son because he is so much like me and he has learned the worried feelings from me and he is only 10 years old. Now he is going to a therapist, at least I am getting him help right now. I can't wait til the end of this work day so that I can go home. [V] I hate this! I also see a therapist and psychiatrist for medication but I am tired of the meds! Has anyone tried the natural supplement called Serenity? One person I chat with raves about it but the scariness in my won't let me try it. Thank you for letting me share and I apologize for this being so long.
Take care
Marilu