Uzi
16-04-05, 18:01
Hi, I just found this great site today. I have been reading through a lot of the forum posts and it helps to know I'm not alone.
I started having anxiety problems and panic attacks 5 yrs ago.
My doctor put me on Seroxat which did seem to help for about 6 months, but then they started to make me feel more anxious and very sick. After 4 yrs of being on this drug I decided I'd had enough and weened myself off it over a 3 month period by taking the liquid form and dropping dosage gradually.
After being out of work for 4 yrs, I decided to get a job after moving to a new place and I was starting to feel better. Things started well enough, felt good to meet new people and to be working again but then the anxiety/panic started again. I don't think it helped that the job was a stressful one and involved working long hours w/o a break.
I started to feel very insecure, nervous and blushed a lot when people talked to me, stammering became a problem too so in the end I just decided not to speak at all most of the time. I had my good days and bad days but the bad were starting to outweigh the good.
I decided to seek help from a hypnotherapist hoping that would be the answer (although a costly one). After the 1st session I felt great for the first couple of days, confidence was back, less blushing, speaking more, but then seemed to revert back to my anxious ways after the 3rd day.
Second session went well too, but same thing happened, fine for a few days then back to anxious ways. I just couldn't afford to keep paying the costs of these sessions so didn't go back.
I have now left the job, worked my notice, and am now unemployed. I have a form from the DSS that says I have 52 weeks to go back onto Incapacity Benefit from the day I started work, but I would have to get a SS1 sickness form from the employer. Problem is I didn't leave the job stating it was through sickness, I just handed in my notice and left after the notice period.
I am now sat in my flat with 2 weeks to find rent money, I have not went to the DSS because I doubt I will be able to get back my benefit, I am at my wits end!
I still use the hypnotherapy tape I was given by the hypnotherapist, which does seem to help me get out of bed and motivated, but I am still very shy and anxious and this money problem is not helping. I will just have to find other work and grin and bare the problems I have.
I just don't know if I can cope with all this, my life feels so ****ty at the moment. I sometimes feel I just want to end it all but I know I won't.
Sorry for the long introduction but it feels better to get it all off my chest as I have no friends to turn to.
Take care all, I will stay in touch.
What I thought was true before were lies I could not see,
What I thought was beautiful were only memories.
I started having anxiety problems and panic attacks 5 yrs ago.
My doctor put me on Seroxat which did seem to help for about 6 months, but then they started to make me feel more anxious and very sick. After 4 yrs of being on this drug I decided I'd had enough and weened myself off it over a 3 month period by taking the liquid form and dropping dosage gradually.
After being out of work for 4 yrs, I decided to get a job after moving to a new place and I was starting to feel better. Things started well enough, felt good to meet new people and to be working again but then the anxiety/panic started again. I don't think it helped that the job was a stressful one and involved working long hours w/o a break.
I started to feel very insecure, nervous and blushed a lot when people talked to me, stammering became a problem too so in the end I just decided not to speak at all most of the time. I had my good days and bad days but the bad were starting to outweigh the good.
I decided to seek help from a hypnotherapist hoping that would be the answer (although a costly one). After the 1st session I felt great for the first couple of days, confidence was back, less blushing, speaking more, but then seemed to revert back to my anxious ways after the 3rd day.
Second session went well too, but same thing happened, fine for a few days then back to anxious ways. I just couldn't afford to keep paying the costs of these sessions so didn't go back.
I have now left the job, worked my notice, and am now unemployed. I have a form from the DSS that says I have 52 weeks to go back onto Incapacity Benefit from the day I started work, but I would have to get a SS1 sickness form from the employer. Problem is I didn't leave the job stating it was through sickness, I just handed in my notice and left after the notice period.
I am now sat in my flat with 2 weeks to find rent money, I have not went to the DSS because I doubt I will be able to get back my benefit, I am at my wits end!
I still use the hypnotherapy tape I was given by the hypnotherapist, which does seem to help me get out of bed and motivated, but I am still very shy and anxious and this money problem is not helping. I will just have to find other work and grin and bare the problems I have.
I just don't know if I can cope with all this, my life feels so ****ty at the moment. I sometimes feel I just want to end it all but I know I won't.
Sorry for the long introduction but it feels better to get it all off my chest as I have no friends to turn to.
Take care all, I will stay in touch.
What I thought was true before were lies I could not see,
What I thought was beautiful were only memories.