Rennie1989
16-06-08, 09:27
Hiya all
Well, I can safely say that I am now allergic to caffeine, I had the worst panic attack ever on Saturday, it's not just the attack itself but where it happened.
My fiancé loves playing cricket, infact he plays for a team in Canterbury and plays all the Canterbury and Dover teams in a league. He lost on Saturday and was unlucky enough to be bowled out after he made 2 runs! During the game I was bored so every now and then I went inside and I made a cup of tea. By about 6 I was starting to feel anxious, shakey and some what teary (almost cried ...). Because of my fiancés mood he wanted me to go home at 7, when my anxiety was peaking.
I got on the bus, which is a 30 minute journey, and as the journey progressed I started feeling more and more anxious and a panic attack started.
By the time I had to get off the bus my arms and legs were starting to cramp. I was so scared as to how I was going to get off this bloomin' bus! I punched the button to make the bus stop because my hands had cramped completely and I couldn't open up my hand. I waddled off the bus and started making my way home. Unfortunaly I didn't make it all the way and I collapsed :weep:
I took me five long minutes for me to grab a pass-by's attention because everybody else was just walking and driving past me! I got him to call my Dad and later on the police came by. The woman was trying to calm me down whilst the man was talking to my Dad, who hadn't a clue what was going on. Infact, she was so close to calling for an ambulance to take me to hospital because my cramps were so tight and so painful, and I was still grasping for air!
My Mum came by as she came back from work and she looked after me when waiting for a paramedic, who then calmed me down. He helped me release my cramps and assisted me to my Mum's car to take me home.
Today I still feel exhausted and sore. Where my head hit the path it still hurts. I feel so embarrased and depressed, how one earth could I let an attack like this happen? I never felt so scared and so strongly about killing myself! I felt that suicide at that time was the only way out, especially where this attack was lasting for 2 hours, it didn't feel like it was ever going to end!
I really need a cuddle and a 'there there' :emot-fail:
Well, I can safely say that I am now allergic to caffeine, I had the worst panic attack ever on Saturday, it's not just the attack itself but where it happened.
My fiancé loves playing cricket, infact he plays for a team in Canterbury and plays all the Canterbury and Dover teams in a league. He lost on Saturday and was unlucky enough to be bowled out after he made 2 runs! During the game I was bored so every now and then I went inside and I made a cup of tea. By about 6 I was starting to feel anxious, shakey and some what teary (almost cried ...). Because of my fiancés mood he wanted me to go home at 7, when my anxiety was peaking.
I got on the bus, which is a 30 minute journey, and as the journey progressed I started feeling more and more anxious and a panic attack started.
By the time I had to get off the bus my arms and legs were starting to cramp. I was so scared as to how I was going to get off this bloomin' bus! I punched the button to make the bus stop because my hands had cramped completely and I couldn't open up my hand. I waddled off the bus and started making my way home. Unfortunaly I didn't make it all the way and I collapsed :weep:
I took me five long minutes for me to grab a pass-by's attention because everybody else was just walking and driving past me! I got him to call my Dad and later on the police came by. The woman was trying to calm me down whilst the man was talking to my Dad, who hadn't a clue what was going on. Infact, she was so close to calling for an ambulance to take me to hospital because my cramps were so tight and so painful, and I was still grasping for air!
My Mum came by as she came back from work and she looked after me when waiting for a paramedic, who then calmed me down. He helped me release my cramps and assisted me to my Mum's car to take me home.
Today I still feel exhausted and sore. Where my head hit the path it still hurts. I feel so embarrased and depressed, how one earth could I let an attack like this happen? I never felt so scared and so strongly about killing myself! I felt that suicide at that time was the only way out, especially where this attack was lasting for 2 hours, it didn't feel like it was ever going to end!
I really need a cuddle and a 'there there' :emot-fail: