TheOriginal_BIRD
18-06-08, 16:54
:weep: Well, its my 3rd test tomorrow, and as much as i like to pretend im fine to everybody, which i always do, im NOT FINE!:doh:
im so scared.:weep:
im fed up with people asking me 'have you passed yet?' as if i cant drive, and are telling me its just nerves..:shrug:
JUST NERVES!? for a person who suffers from panic attacks it is TERRIFYING!!!!!!
my first test went fine, and i was so proud of myself that id done it..even though i failed with just 4 minors and 1 serious. i just thought WOW, even though i was so upset i felt so happy with myself..
my second was BAD. i mucked it up and had a panic attack when i was driving, which has never happened before, and because of the situation i didnt dare to say anything, so continued to drive feeling like i was about to die any second or throw up. i couldnt think, my legs were shaking, and at one point i felt so faint i had to pull up.
needless to say, i failed..quite badly really!
so now tomorrow is my 3rd test, and i hope its my final one! i cant go through this again..i just cant..:weep: i have to build myself up for weeks before hand, i lose sleep, i cant eat, and im dreading it..hmpph..
was feeling like a rant thought id have one!! :)
:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: thankyou for reading :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:
im so scared.:weep:
im fed up with people asking me 'have you passed yet?' as if i cant drive, and are telling me its just nerves..:shrug:
JUST NERVES!? for a person who suffers from panic attacks it is TERRIFYING!!!!!!
my first test went fine, and i was so proud of myself that id done it..even though i failed with just 4 minors and 1 serious. i just thought WOW, even though i was so upset i felt so happy with myself..
my second was BAD. i mucked it up and had a panic attack when i was driving, which has never happened before, and because of the situation i didnt dare to say anything, so continued to drive feeling like i was about to die any second or throw up. i couldnt think, my legs were shaking, and at one point i felt so faint i had to pull up.
needless to say, i failed..quite badly really!
so now tomorrow is my 3rd test, and i hope its my final one! i cant go through this again..i just cant..:weep: i have to build myself up for weeks before hand, i lose sleep, i cant eat, and im dreading it..hmpph..
was feeling like a rant thought id have one!! :)
:hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: thankyou for reading :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: