Zingara
18-06-08, 18:25
Hi,
I just feel so awful I can't stop crying...everything is going wrong again. I've been in a state of really bad anxiety all day because of a really big unexplained bruise on my leg, which I've already posted about on Health Anxiety. I can't stop worrying that it's leukaemia. Then this afternoon I went into work and one of the clerks suddenly had a go at me (I haven't even seen him for four months, but he's heard about all my problems) saying 'You're wallowing in self-pity' and 'pull yourself up by your bootstraps, life's passing you by.' I know I should have said something but I was nearly in tears and had to go out and try to calm down.
Then after that I went to my mum's and I was telling her about the bruise and that I was scared of leukaemia. She then got angry with me and said she was sick of my constant anxiety and that I put all my worries onto her and she can't cope with it. She is going away this weekend and now I feel really bad that I've spoiled it for her. My boyfriend is annoyed with me as well. I feel terrible as well as really worried about the bruise. I tried so hard to get into work as well, only to have my confidence knocked yet again, I don't know why I bother. It's all just too hard, all of it.
I just feel so awful I can't stop crying...everything is going wrong again. I've been in a state of really bad anxiety all day because of a really big unexplained bruise on my leg, which I've already posted about on Health Anxiety. I can't stop worrying that it's leukaemia. Then this afternoon I went into work and one of the clerks suddenly had a go at me (I haven't even seen him for four months, but he's heard about all my problems) saying 'You're wallowing in self-pity' and 'pull yourself up by your bootstraps, life's passing you by.' I know I should have said something but I was nearly in tears and had to go out and try to calm down.
Then after that I went to my mum's and I was telling her about the bruise and that I was scared of leukaemia. She then got angry with me and said she was sick of my constant anxiety and that I put all my worries onto her and she can't cope with it. She is going away this weekend and now I feel really bad that I've spoiled it for her. My boyfriend is annoyed with me as well. I feel terrible as well as really worried about the bruise. I tried so hard to get into work as well, only to have my confidence knocked yet again, I don't know why I bother. It's all just too hard, all of it.