Wicker Man
19-06-08, 14:29
Hi Everybody,
I have read posts on the forum many times but this is my first post.
I have just wasted the first part of the year worrying that I had melanoma (the mole was removed and found to be OK) and now I am convinced that I have lymphoma. I have had a palpable lymph node in my neck for a long time, but as a result of an anxiety attack, had that choking sensation and prodded and poked my neck till it was red and sore, thinking it was a lump causing the sensation, anyway the next day a small lump has appeared in my sternal notch. My wife ( who is a doctor !!!!) says it is more than likely caused by my poking. I have no other symptoms ie weight loss or sweats etc but still am convinced i have cancer.
My worry and depression is all consuming I don`t want to leave the house, just sleep, unfortunately my main activity (beside child care) was martial arts and the gym, but the site of my mole excision was my ankle and the scar has split so I cannot go training.
I was a para-medic for 18 years but had a emotional break down after being involved in the murder of a child. Since then I have become a hypochondriac and had bouts of depression, I also worry obsessively about the health and welfare of my children.
I have just started (two days ago) on Citalopram 20mg and am suffering from increased anxiety, and other side effects in the mornings I hope these will soon wear off.
My marriage is OK, but believe me it makes thing worse being married to a doctor.
I have had enough of spending my days lying on the settee feeling sick with worry and trying to feel for new lumps or symptoms.
I have tried counselling but I am don`t communicate well with strangers and was horrified at the cost !
Any suggestions to help me climb off rock bottom would be appreciated.
Chris.
I have read posts on the forum many times but this is my first post.
I have just wasted the first part of the year worrying that I had melanoma (the mole was removed and found to be OK) and now I am convinced that I have lymphoma. I have had a palpable lymph node in my neck for a long time, but as a result of an anxiety attack, had that choking sensation and prodded and poked my neck till it was red and sore, thinking it was a lump causing the sensation, anyway the next day a small lump has appeared in my sternal notch. My wife ( who is a doctor !!!!) says it is more than likely caused by my poking. I have no other symptoms ie weight loss or sweats etc but still am convinced i have cancer.
My worry and depression is all consuming I don`t want to leave the house, just sleep, unfortunately my main activity (beside child care) was martial arts and the gym, but the site of my mole excision was my ankle and the scar has split so I cannot go training.
I was a para-medic for 18 years but had a emotional break down after being involved in the murder of a child. Since then I have become a hypochondriac and had bouts of depression, I also worry obsessively about the health and welfare of my children.
I have just started (two days ago) on Citalopram 20mg and am suffering from increased anxiety, and other side effects in the mornings I hope these will soon wear off.
My marriage is OK, but believe me it makes thing worse being married to a doctor.
I have had enough of spending my days lying on the settee feeling sick with worry and trying to feel for new lumps or symptoms.
I have tried counselling but I am don`t communicate well with strangers and was horrified at the cost !
Any suggestions to help me climb off rock bottom would be appreciated.
Chris.