mila
28-06-08, 19:20
Please guys don't take it against me for having another post about my stomach issues, i am really having dificulty coping right now.
I just don't know what to do. I know I am probably doing all the wrong things at the moment but I can't help myself, I feel it is stronger than me!
I have been spending days on the internet, I keep typing my symptoms in the google, but i am only looking for more cases of people feeling like me...I feel no one else possibly can feel like this and by not finding people feeling quite like me in full i only feel even worse. I keep reading the symproms section saying:
You may feel bloated or gaseous, or that there is a lump in your stomach. Sometimes you may feel like you have butterflies in your stomach or that your stomach is tight. Some people refer to it as a 'heavy' stomach.
But I can't make myself belive that this actually explains how I feel. Cause I feel this very heavy bloatedness and fullness in the area above my bellybutton to just below the sternum, which is worse after eating, for a long time after eating. And I belch. A lot. And I feel like maybe some food is left in my throat. And very occasionally I can get regurgutation wit a burp but it is not acidy at all.
And that is about it.
But it is so so uncomfortable.
I also payed money to read this:
You may feel: nausea, bloating, burning sensation in the stomach, gas, feeling like there is a lump or knot in the stomach, an uncomfortable fullness in the stomach, a tightness in the stomach, an " anxiety" stomach, a "heavy" stomach....and so on. Symptoms may come eratically or PERSIST INDEFINITELY! and all are common when anxiety is present.
So I keep reading these things, from time to time remembering my blood test results are fine and well if my stomach is giving me problems at least my liver, my kidneys, and my thyroid are fine...so i can't be in such a bad shape.
But when the fullness becomes worse I just feel like i cannot take it for another minute longer. I have tried different medicines, I even bought some herbal tablets suppose to be good in improving digestion plus i have tried aloa before and fennel... I am just lost now. I think about doctor sending me for gastroscopy or colonoscopy which he first thought coz he keeps talking about my bowels and i keep talking about my stomach. And all the time it will take. And i don't know what to do. I have these inner converstaions all the time, i mean guys you can't imagine how obssessed i am right now with my stomach and how i can't focus on anything else. I was telling myself today, listen if this was something really bad, like C, something else would start happening, you would get some warning symptoms most likely, instead of just fullness and gas. It would be getting worse, you would lose more weight, not just this little weight you lose coz you can't eat as much as you did before...I am sounding really rational here don't I? Well, that doesn't really help much...
Then I remember all the things I would wanna cry about right now, but I just don't. instead I feel like they are somehow held in there, in the pit of my stomach, in that tightness...
I have finally graduated, after dropping out when almost finished my previous degree, all because of anxiety. Well now I have finished, no more school, and that was all i have known. I am sooooo scared and so lost. I have done really well, got great grades and all the things I have dreamed of are so close now, the job i have dreamed of, and I am so so frightened...
I also miss my mom a lot, I haven't seen her for a long time, she lives in Serbia where I was born and I feel that I need her right now, but we had a fight, and I feel things between us will never be the same again. I am in a relationship she doesn't aprove and she even said she won't talk to me if i chose to be with him. Right now we talk but I know it won't last because I have no intentions of leaving him, he is my rock really. So deep inside I know I have to let go and stop being a child.
Sometimes I think it is easier to constantly focus on stomach that bothers me than on all those things but I can't believe I could feel this bad just because of it...Although anxiety have made me feel pretty bad many times before.
Thank you so much to anyone who reads this, I am sorry for my rant, but I really feel I am not making any progress and I am not coping with this really well and feel so desperate to feel better...
I just don't know what to do. I know I am probably doing all the wrong things at the moment but I can't help myself, I feel it is stronger than me!
I have been spending days on the internet, I keep typing my symptoms in the google, but i am only looking for more cases of people feeling like me...I feel no one else possibly can feel like this and by not finding people feeling quite like me in full i only feel even worse. I keep reading the symproms section saying:
You may feel bloated or gaseous, or that there is a lump in your stomach. Sometimes you may feel like you have butterflies in your stomach or that your stomach is tight. Some people refer to it as a 'heavy' stomach.
But I can't make myself belive that this actually explains how I feel. Cause I feel this very heavy bloatedness and fullness in the area above my bellybutton to just below the sternum, which is worse after eating, for a long time after eating. And I belch. A lot. And I feel like maybe some food is left in my throat. And very occasionally I can get regurgutation wit a burp but it is not acidy at all.
And that is about it.
But it is so so uncomfortable.
I also payed money to read this:
You may feel: nausea, bloating, burning sensation in the stomach, gas, feeling like there is a lump or knot in the stomach, an uncomfortable fullness in the stomach, a tightness in the stomach, an " anxiety" stomach, a "heavy" stomach....and so on. Symptoms may come eratically or PERSIST INDEFINITELY! and all are common when anxiety is present.
So I keep reading these things, from time to time remembering my blood test results are fine and well if my stomach is giving me problems at least my liver, my kidneys, and my thyroid are fine...so i can't be in such a bad shape.
But when the fullness becomes worse I just feel like i cannot take it for another minute longer. I have tried different medicines, I even bought some herbal tablets suppose to be good in improving digestion plus i have tried aloa before and fennel... I am just lost now. I think about doctor sending me for gastroscopy or colonoscopy which he first thought coz he keeps talking about my bowels and i keep talking about my stomach. And all the time it will take. And i don't know what to do. I have these inner converstaions all the time, i mean guys you can't imagine how obssessed i am right now with my stomach and how i can't focus on anything else. I was telling myself today, listen if this was something really bad, like C, something else would start happening, you would get some warning symptoms most likely, instead of just fullness and gas. It would be getting worse, you would lose more weight, not just this little weight you lose coz you can't eat as much as you did before...I am sounding really rational here don't I? Well, that doesn't really help much...
Then I remember all the things I would wanna cry about right now, but I just don't. instead I feel like they are somehow held in there, in the pit of my stomach, in that tightness...
I have finally graduated, after dropping out when almost finished my previous degree, all because of anxiety. Well now I have finished, no more school, and that was all i have known. I am sooooo scared and so lost. I have done really well, got great grades and all the things I have dreamed of are so close now, the job i have dreamed of, and I am so so frightened...
I also miss my mom a lot, I haven't seen her for a long time, she lives in Serbia where I was born and I feel that I need her right now, but we had a fight, and I feel things between us will never be the same again. I am in a relationship she doesn't aprove and she even said she won't talk to me if i chose to be with him. Right now we talk but I know it won't last because I have no intentions of leaving him, he is my rock really. So deep inside I know I have to let go and stop being a child.
Sometimes I think it is easier to constantly focus on stomach that bothers me than on all those things but I can't believe I could feel this bad just because of it...Although anxiety have made me feel pretty bad many times before.
Thank you so much to anyone who reads this, I am sorry for my rant, but I really feel I am not making any progress and I am not coping with this really well and feel so desperate to feel better...