icklebex
02-07-08, 08:09
Hi all, sorry to post I guess I just needed some help or reassurance or something, sorry if I waffle, its my forte.
I came back to work monday after over a week off, work stress got to me and I broke down infront of my boss as panic attacks started after over a year doing great, so disheartened.
Theyve been great, made me work fixed hours no more as am on flexi and was working too many hours to as staff shortage, deadlines missed. and reduced my workload. but work is still chaos, people are so unhappy.
I felt much better after having time off and everyone on here has been so very supportive and i am so grateful, thank you.
The panic attacks came back last nite with a vengeance, had co codomal as felt edgy bad idea i know, woke up after 2-3hrs sleep in panic heart racing, chattering in my head, sweating, tingly the lot! i got up after trying to stay in bed and fight it, and came on here just reading and rang no panic helpline and did breating exercises. felt better then hot milk back to bed, bam happened straight away and i think i slept an hour or so on and off after being up for over 3 hours and having more co codomal. I'm due to start work soon and just want to cry, be sick, im shaky, my heart hurts. when i have night panic it throws me into chaos. I just wana stay home with my cats!
My partner is wonderful, im so fortunate in so many ways I just felt so disappointed, i want to hand in my notice but i don't want to run away this time, i need to fight it, i don't want more sick days, i don't want to crawl back to temp agencies after quitting another job through panic, i dont want to let everyone down. im so so scared, and now im crying so will look like a beetroot soon. and we have our first foreign holiday together in 2 weeks time and Im scared il be a mess and let my partner down.
i try to keep smiling, keep a lid on, im friendly happy type person normally. the doc has put my citalopram up to 40mg, it will be 2 wks fri being on that dose, maybe its side effects, heightened anxiety i dont know.
sorry to go on im just so upset at myself that this is happening yet again. i know the panic attacks won't harm me, but how long can you sustain them at nite with not much sleep? i feel so drained.
any advice anything please?
and hugs to everyone who is struggling at the moment xxxxxxx
thankyou for taking the time to read.
I came back to work monday after over a week off, work stress got to me and I broke down infront of my boss as panic attacks started after over a year doing great, so disheartened.
Theyve been great, made me work fixed hours no more as am on flexi and was working too many hours to as staff shortage, deadlines missed. and reduced my workload. but work is still chaos, people are so unhappy.
I felt much better after having time off and everyone on here has been so very supportive and i am so grateful, thank you.
The panic attacks came back last nite with a vengeance, had co codomal as felt edgy bad idea i know, woke up after 2-3hrs sleep in panic heart racing, chattering in my head, sweating, tingly the lot! i got up after trying to stay in bed and fight it, and came on here just reading and rang no panic helpline and did breating exercises. felt better then hot milk back to bed, bam happened straight away and i think i slept an hour or so on and off after being up for over 3 hours and having more co codomal. I'm due to start work soon and just want to cry, be sick, im shaky, my heart hurts. when i have night panic it throws me into chaos. I just wana stay home with my cats!
My partner is wonderful, im so fortunate in so many ways I just felt so disappointed, i want to hand in my notice but i don't want to run away this time, i need to fight it, i don't want more sick days, i don't want to crawl back to temp agencies after quitting another job through panic, i dont want to let everyone down. im so so scared, and now im crying so will look like a beetroot soon. and we have our first foreign holiday together in 2 weeks time and Im scared il be a mess and let my partner down.
i try to keep smiling, keep a lid on, im friendly happy type person normally. the doc has put my citalopram up to 40mg, it will be 2 wks fri being on that dose, maybe its side effects, heightened anxiety i dont know.
sorry to go on im just so upset at myself that this is happening yet again. i know the panic attacks won't harm me, but how long can you sustain them at nite with not much sleep? i feel so drained.
any advice anything please?
and hugs to everyone who is struggling at the moment xxxxxxx
thankyou for taking the time to read.