anxiousk
03-07-08, 02:57
Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum but not new to anxiety issues.
I am a 24 year old female, you can call me K, short for my first name :).
I have been suffering with anxiety problems from as early back as I can remeber, but after a particularly stressful time in my life about 2.5 years ago - I started my cycle into panic disorder that so far has basically controlled my life.
I purchased the Lucinda Basset program Attacking Anxiety and Depression when this started and while I feel it is a good program, so far I have been unsucessful with finding any relief from my daily panic attacks and horrific body sypmtoms.
I've also tried therapy with no real results, although better results than when I was going the program alone.
I've also tried Lexapro 10 mg but gained a startling amount of weight in a short period of time (5 months), so I weaned off of that and haven't tried anything else since.
I will frequently have one good week where I feel I'm getting better and then 2 months or more of anxiety and panic disorder awful-ness.
I have a wonderful, amazing husband but even he I think is starting to just accept this as a way of life w/me constantly freaking out, always being sick, and worrying I'm dying.
I found this forum looking for information on the Linden System (which I decided not to go with) and am so glad I did find this place.
More than anything I want to get better, but what I've not been able to find is how to get the courage to get better. I've read all the books, done a lot of work, put myself out there and I remain essentially, unchanged.
I'd love to meet others who are struggling, progressing, or anyone that can help me.
My main fears are all health related. I fear odd symptoms and being sick (which I do have some chronic issues). I fear dying constantly and everytime I have an attack no matter how many I've had before I'm terrified that this will be the time that I'm dying of one of my sicknesses or a disease no one found.
I of course, have other worries, but this is my above all, terrible worry that plagues me constantly.
Sorry for rambling on I just wanted to give some background on who I am and what my "story" is.
I really look forward to chatting with you all!
-K
I am a 24 year old female, you can call me K, short for my first name :).
I have been suffering with anxiety problems from as early back as I can remeber, but after a particularly stressful time in my life about 2.5 years ago - I started my cycle into panic disorder that so far has basically controlled my life.
I purchased the Lucinda Basset program Attacking Anxiety and Depression when this started and while I feel it is a good program, so far I have been unsucessful with finding any relief from my daily panic attacks and horrific body sypmtoms.
I've also tried therapy with no real results, although better results than when I was going the program alone.
I've also tried Lexapro 10 mg but gained a startling amount of weight in a short period of time (5 months), so I weaned off of that and haven't tried anything else since.
I will frequently have one good week where I feel I'm getting better and then 2 months or more of anxiety and panic disorder awful-ness.
I have a wonderful, amazing husband but even he I think is starting to just accept this as a way of life w/me constantly freaking out, always being sick, and worrying I'm dying.
I found this forum looking for information on the Linden System (which I decided not to go with) and am so glad I did find this place.
More than anything I want to get better, but what I've not been able to find is how to get the courage to get better. I've read all the books, done a lot of work, put myself out there and I remain essentially, unchanged.
I'd love to meet others who are struggling, progressing, or anyone that can help me.
My main fears are all health related. I fear odd symptoms and being sick (which I do have some chronic issues). I fear dying constantly and everytime I have an attack no matter how many I've had before I'm terrified that this will be the time that I'm dying of one of my sicknesses or a disease no one found.
I of course, have other worries, but this is my above all, terrible worry that plagues me constantly.
Sorry for rambling on I just wanted to give some background on who I am and what my "story" is.
I really look forward to chatting with you all!
-K