thevoicewithinme
07-07-08, 10:11
Ok I know this sounds absolutely stupid, but, as you know I am agoraphobic and haven't recently been out for over a week, but....today I have got to go out as it's my boyfriends 40th tomorrow and I have got to go get him a card, and thought I would be able to do this relatively easy as my sister-in-law is going to be sat next to me in the car, but things have now changed and I am sat here getting really panicky while waiting for her to turn up, because there are now workmen outside the house and they have put traffic lights up right outside. I am usually ok on short trips in the car, so long as the car keeps moving and I avoid traffic lights as hate stopping as I feel trapped....see, I told you its stupid didnt I?
I am now getting myself in a state as I know I am going to have to wait for lights to change before reversing off my driveway and I also know that the chances are I will get a red light and have to sit there on my way back home.
I so don't want to go out now, but I know I have to....please all I am asking is wish me luck.
Sometimes I feel I am going mad because of the things that make me panic.
Kaz
I am now getting myself in a state as I know I am going to have to wait for lights to change before reversing off my driveway and I also know that the chances are I will get a red light and have to sit there on my way back home.
I so don't want to go out now, but I know I have to....please all I am asking is wish me luck.
Sometimes I feel I am going mad because of the things that make me panic.
Kaz