Angelic_one_
12-07-08, 17:53
Well hey all, i'm new here (wish i was to panic and anxiety tho) i stumbled across your site after looking for info on an antidepressant i've just been prescribed (but read the side effects bit first :scared15: so they're still untouched)
I've been a GAD sufferer for 17 years now and have mostly controlled it with Valium....but i find myself looking at 'normal' ppl and wanting to be exactly like them more and more just lately, i have four kids and feel they have missed out on so much,we dont do family holidays (i wouldn't cope) i cant use public transport and dont drive so we never go into the major towns unless its with my mum who over the years has become some kind of security blanket (kind of sad and confusing to have to rely on your mum so heavily at the age of 34 with a family of your own) the sad thing is she only has a limited time left to live so as well as the stress of having to deal with that i find myself selfishly worrying how my life will be after this happens, a major setback last week almost left me housebound again....So yesterday was the day i decided no more! Forced myself to go somewhere i knew would almost certainly bring up those horrible horrible feelings.....and coped..just (with the help of my mum who promised that she would turn the car around and take me straight home if i felt i needed to go)
Anyways have been reading through your site and felt compelled to join, would be nice to have some contact with people who are going through the same thing instead of feeling like an outcast :)
I've been a GAD sufferer for 17 years now and have mostly controlled it with Valium....but i find myself looking at 'normal' ppl and wanting to be exactly like them more and more just lately, i have four kids and feel they have missed out on so much,we dont do family holidays (i wouldn't cope) i cant use public transport and dont drive so we never go into the major towns unless its with my mum who over the years has become some kind of security blanket (kind of sad and confusing to have to rely on your mum so heavily at the age of 34 with a family of your own) the sad thing is she only has a limited time left to live so as well as the stress of having to deal with that i find myself selfishly worrying how my life will be after this happens, a major setback last week almost left me housebound again....So yesterday was the day i decided no more! Forced myself to go somewhere i knew would almost certainly bring up those horrible horrible feelings.....and coped..just (with the help of my mum who promised that she would turn the car around and take me straight home if i felt i needed to go)
Anyways have been reading through your site and felt compelled to join, would be nice to have some contact with people who are going through the same thing instead of feeling like an outcast :)