richy
13-07-08, 09:48
I've been reading these threads for a couple days and decided it was time I came on board. I've been off work due to stress and anxiety for past couple of weeks (SW engineer - high pressure work on complicated project). I've had episodes of anxiety and depression like this twice before in my life. The first at age 10 following prolonged concussion after a fall, then at about 27 due to work stress (I'm 40 now). Both times I kept it all bottled in, and stayed at school/work and eventually came through but this time I've opened up and stopped going to work.
I'm freelance and not sure I'll have a job to go back to before long. Saw a counsellor for first time last week, but I got impression she wants me to let it all out and breakdown, but that terrifies me, as I'll prob lose job and maybe sanity? Feel I'm waiting to go crazy and need to get back to work, but that caused my problems in first place. Stuck between rock and hard place. My past traumas have left me with a stomach disorder meaning a very limited diet which adds to my woes, but I guess some people have worse problems to deal with (one mate of mine was paralysed from neck down after a fall). Seeing counsellor on Monday with a list of pros and cons for both options. Want to be strong and face things.
Had a sleepness night last and got depression knawing in my stomach, but trying to stay positive today. Off to church soon and then for a walk with a mate which will hopefully cheer me up.
:unsure: Not used forums/chat rooms before so be gentle with me!
I'm freelance and not sure I'll have a job to go back to before long. Saw a counsellor for first time last week, but I got impression she wants me to let it all out and breakdown, but that terrifies me, as I'll prob lose job and maybe sanity? Feel I'm waiting to go crazy and need to get back to work, but that caused my problems in first place. Stuck between rock and hard place. My past traumas have left me with a stomach disorder meaning a very limited diet which adds to my woes, but I guess some people have worse problems to deal with (one mate of mine was paralysed from neck down after a fall). Seeing counsellor on Monday with a list of pros and cons for both options. Want to be strong and face things.
Had a sleepness night last and got depression knawing in my stomach, but trying to stay positive today. Off to church soon and then for a walk with a mate which will hopefully cheer me up.
:unsure: Not used forums/chat rooms before so be gentle with me!