Worried worrier!
15-07-08, 01:07
First of all i'd just like to say that this site has given me alot of relief knowing that i'm not alone.
I am going though a very tough time at the moment with panic attacks/ocd and intrusive thoughts.
I would usually only get these things now and again since the age of twelve.
However, after taking some penacillin recently i had a HUGE panic attack one night....the worst i've ever had! I felt as though i was going to throw myself out of the window and was afraid i'd lose control and hurt my children. My partner was out so i had to ring him to come home as i was petrified that i was losing control and i was at a loss of what to do.
I saw my gp the next day who took me off the medication and i was fine for the next few days.
All of a sudden the panic attacks came back, along with the intrusive thoughts of hurting or killing myself or my children.
I am an extremely loving, protective mother and a kind person and i know i would never want any of these things to happen. the thoughts are sometimes so awful it makes me want to vomit i.e bad images of slicing my wrists or my daughters throat.
I know that my OCD is causing this and my gp doesnt consider me a danger and i have requested councilling. And even though i know i love my children so much and i have no desire to end my life, i am scared i'll lose control because of these repetitive thoughts. It has made me really scared to be at home looking after the children on my own. I am on prozac and am just finishing a course of diazepam but still i am so afraid. Has anyone else had these fears? I feel so sad :weep: and need help x
I am going though a very tough time at the moment with panic attacks/ocd and intrusive thoughts.
I would usually only get these things now and again since the age of twelve.
However, after taking some penacillin recently i had a HUGE panic attack one night....the worst i've ever had! I felt as though i was going to throw myself out of the window and was afraid i'd lose control and hurt my children. My partner was out so i had to ring him to come home as i was petrified that i was losing control and i was at a loss of what to do.
I saw my gp the next day who took me off the medication and i was fine for the next few days.
All of a sudden the panic attacks came back, along with the intrusive thoughts of hurting or killing myself or my children.
I am an extremely loving, protective mother and a kind person and i know i would never want any of these things to happen. the thoughts are sometimes so awful it makes me want to vomit i.e bad images of slicing my wrists or my daughters throat.
I know that my OCD is causing this and my gp doesnt consider me a danger and i have requested councilling. And even though i know i love my children so much and i have no desire to end my life, i am scared i'll lose control because of these repetitive thoughts. It has made me really scared to be at home looking after the children on my own. I am on prozac and am just finishing a course of diazepam but still i am so afraid. Has anyone else had these fears? I feel so sad :weep: and need help x