tamo
15-07-08, 21:48
Freinds.
Once more the symptoms of panic have raised to the surface.My anxiety levels have gotten very high and I need to ask for advice before things get out of control.
I have been well for a good few months after suffering bad panic/anx a year ago following heavy drinking.
My wife was diagnosed with a malignant growth in her bowel 5 weeks ago.They have operated and have removed this.They say the operation was successful but they are suspicious that there may be something abnormal in her liver.They gave her a CT scan which showed all was ok but to be certain they are going to give her a more detailed scan ( pet scan i think) which shows for certain if any cancer cells are still present.
I have been trying so hard to be strong for her and this waiting is so stressful.She gets this other scan on the 22nd july and the results 1 week later.what ever the scan shows she has to get 6 lots of chemotherapy.I don't know if I am handling this atall.........The thing is,she is very calm about the whole thing and it's scaring me stiff since I have always had health axiety...........I keep projecting my thoughts to the future and that they won't be able to cure her and I am left with my young boy without a Mum.
How can i stop thinking so negative?
I am still at work but really struggling.I haven't had a drink in a year but i am struggling with that too although i still haven't picked up any drink I fear that i might crack and start that nightmare again.
I know that it is my thinking that is draging me back to that black hole but how do I switch this bad thinking off.
I am doing a great job around the house and being supportive for her and my Son but I fear that if I let this anxiety reach the levels I had last year i might not be able to be supportive.
The last thing she needs is me falling apart.
Please help.
Tom
Once more the symptoms of panic have raised to the surface.My anxiety levels have gotten very high and I need to ask for advice before things get out of control.
I have been well for a good few months after suffering bad panic/anx a year ago following heavy drinking.
My wife was diagnosed with a malignant growth in her bowel 5 weeks ago.They have operated and have removed this.They say the operation was successful but they are suspicious that there may be something abnormal in her liver.They gave her a CT scan which showed all was ok but to be certain they are going to give her a more detailed scan ( pet scan i think) which shows for certain if any cancer cells are still present.
I have been trying so hard to be strong for her and this waiting is so stressful.She gets this other scan on the 22nd july and the results 1 week later.what ever the scan shows she has to get 6 lots of chemotherapy.I don't know if I am handling this atall.........The thing is,she is very calm about the whole thing and it's scaring me stiff since I have always had health axiety...........I keep projecting my thoughts to the future and that they won't be able to cure her and I am left with my young boy without a Mum.
How can i stop thinking so negative?
I am still at work but really struggling.I haven't had a drink in a year but i am struggling with that too although i still haven't picked up any drink I fear that i might crack and start that nightmare again.
I know that it is my thinking that is draging me back to that black hole but how do I switch this bad thinking off.
I am doing a great job around the house and being supportive for her and my Son but I fear that if I let this anxiety reach the levels I had last year i might not be able to be supportive.
The last thing she needs is me falling apart.
Please help.
Tom