mothermac
20-07-08, 21:19
I am in quite a pondrous mood today as I am tired(after another night of broken sleep) and have had a few panic attacks unfortunately. They weren't too bad on the whole but still managed to spoil the day.
Myself,my husband,daughter and mum went out to a garden centre this afternoon and I lost sight of them for a while which resulted in me losing them,this in turn led to me getting anxious and frightened and the staff had to put a call out for them(embarrasing)Anyway we finally found each other and I sadly shouted at them for not looking for me(they had not thought I was lost for a second and were looking at ornaments)so it was my b.......y anxiety again playing tricks with my mind.I walked back to the car feeling sorry for myself and wondering why I am a pain in the a....e.It got me thinking about a film I watched last week,and there is a speech in it that makes you think,itgoes like this,
Is life for suffering,and does God want us to suffer
Maybe the answer is yes,God does want us to suffer
He wants us to be like a sculpture's model,and the blows from
the chisel are like life's problems,they hurt us and cause pain
but after the pain we are perfect and unblemished ready
to be admired.
I can't remember it word for word but it went something like that anyway.It got me thinking that perhaps it's true and coming through my anxiety will make me stronger. I feel as though one day all this may be behind me and I can break free of negative thinking,cos that's all anxiety really is. My mother is a very negative woman and tends to think on the black side of everything,she is the phrophet of doom(my husband says)and often drives me mad with her negativity.
We all help each other on here and I know even though I am not cured,far from it that the folks on here have eased my symptoms somewhat knowing that they are there,thanks to all.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:bighug1: :roflmao:
Myself,my husband,daughter and mum went out to a garden centre this afternoon and I lost sight of them for a while which resulted in me losing them,this in turn led to me getting anxious and frightened and the staff had to put a call out for them(embarrasing)Anyway we finally found each other and I sadly shouted at them for not looking for me(they had not thought I was lost for a second and were looking at ornaments)so it was my b.......y anxiety again playing tricks with my mind.I walked back to the car feeling sorry for myself and wondering why I am a pain in the a....e.It got me thinking about a film I watched last week,and there is a speech in it that makes you think,itgoes like this,
Is life for suffering,and does God want us to suffer
Maybe the answer is yes,God does want us to suffer
He wants us to be like a sculpture's model,and the blows from
the chisel are like life's problems,they hurt us and cause pain
but after the pain we are perfect and unblemished ready
to be admired.
I can't remember it word for word but it went something like that anyway.It got me thinking that perhaps it's true and coming through my anxiety will make me stronger. I feel as though one day all this may be behind me and I can break free of negative thinking,cos that's all anxiety really is. My mother is a very negative woman and tends to think on the black side of everything,she is the phrophet of doom(my husband says)and often drives me mad with her negativity.
We all help each other on here and I know even though I am not cured,far from it that the folks on here have eased my symptoms somewhat knowing that they are there,thanks to all.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:bighug1: :roflmao: