Gilly2shoes
25-07-08, 04:23
HI, Thought it might help me, to tell you all about me! (well even if nobody reads it, it helps to get it off my mind!)
Im 38 and about a year and a half ago I had a baby, ten days after I woke up around 4am (do you see the pattern!) feeling very ill. I ignored it and went back to bed feeling awful. Anyway several days later it happened again, this time i had a nice ride in an ambulance. I had some tests and it turned out I had had a Heart attack due to a dissection of one of my arteries!!!!. Talk about shock!!! there was more to come, I had only days to live if I didn't have an operation! I was rushed to another hospital where i had an emergency double heart bypass.
Now the physical recovery has been good the damage my heart has totally gone and is now pumping 100% (Unheard of so quick or so they tell me, I was very fit before and this kept me alive!).
The recovery to my head has not gone well, I have been on prozac for about a year now and have had to ..up my dose as it seemed to be wearing off!
I wake up in the early hours of the morning and think I must be having another heart attack and then I feel the panic rise in me. I have ended up I suppose understandably in A&E a few times. Then a kind doctor sat with me and explained about the stress I have been through and the effect it has on the body, and that what i was experiencing was a panic attack. It calmed them down a bit, but I still have them and they are still as scary.
I do feel sorry for myself sometimes and feel really annoyed that I had to go through this, but at the end of the day. Im still here and Im lucky, most women are diagnosed after death with a dissection!.
Anyway I have had various forms of help from hospitals to therapy and people tell me I will get better with time when my stress levels go down.
It feels very lonely at this time in the morning though.
Gilly
Im 38 and about a year and a half ago I had a baby, ten days after I woke up around 4am (do you see the pattern!) feeling very ill. I ignored it and went back to bed feeling awful. Anyway several days later it happened again, this time i had a nice ride in an ambulance. I had some tests and it turned out I had had a Heart attack due to a dissection of one of my arteries!!!!. Talk about shock!!! there was more to come, I had only days to live if I didn't have an operation! I was rushed to another hospital where i had an emergency double heart bypass.
Now the physical recovery has been good the damage my heart has totally gone and is now pumping 100% (Unheard of so quick or so they tell me, I was very fit before and this kept me alive!).
The recovery to my head has not gone well, I have been on prozac for about a year now and have had to ..up my dose as it seemed to be wearing off!
I wake up in the early hours of the morning and think I must be having another heart attack and then I feel the panic rise in me. I have ended up I suppose understandably in A&E a few times. Then a kind doctor sat with me and explained about the stress I have been through and the effect it has on the body, and that what i was experiencing was a panic attack. It calmed them down a bit, but I still have them and they are still as scary.
I do feel sorry for myself sometimes and feel really annoyed that I had to go through this, but at the end of the day. Im still here and Im lucky, most women are diagnosed after death with a dissection!.
Anyway I have had various forms of help from hospitals to therapy and people tell me I will get better with time when my stress levels go down.
It feels very lonely at this time in the morning though.
Gilly