helenclaire
29-07-08, 15:46
I have lost count of the times i have let other people down as i have not felt well enough to do things, i always feel really guilty about it, but at the time i cannot face these things.
Anyway i had an hairdressers appt tomorrow, i have put it off for months as i find it difficult to go, i was getting myself all geared up to go but today i feel so bad that i have cancelled it, i could not face sitting in there for 2 hours.
But it has made me realise that the person i am letting down most of all is me, i am now sat here feeling really down because i really wanted it done, i seem to have more grey hairs every day.
Why do i put myself through this, i do not seem to have any control over it and it is ruining my life.
I am still waiting to see a counsellor after many months, but the way i feel at the moment i cannot see that it will help.
Sorry for going on, i needed to get it off my chest, i am angry and upset with myself.
Helen
Anyway i had an hairdressers appt tomorrow, i have put it off for months as i find it difficult to go, i was getting myself all geared up to go but today i feel so bad that i have cancelled it, i could not face sitting in there for 2 hours.
But it has made me realise that the person i am letting down most of all is me, i am now sat here feeling really down because i really wanted it done, i seem to have more grey hairs every day.
Why do i put myself through this, i do not seem to have any control over it and it is ruining my life.
I am still waiting to see a counsellor after many months, but the way i feel at the moment i cannot see that it will help.
Sorry for going on, i needed to get it off my chest, i am angry and upset with myself.
Helen