jcapson
30-07-08, 18:37
I know that I have to cope with being by myself with the kids overnight as HB finally got a job, but why did everything have to happen so soon and all at once.
Two nights ago there was a shooting 5 houses down (mistaken identity and no one was hurt). There hasn't been anything close to this in the five years we have lived here, it's a pretty safe neighbourhood. Add that to HB working overnight, for the first time, last night and I wasn't doing well...and really still not because I have to do it all over again tonight. I couldn't make any decisions (bed sheets for Paul and pjs for both) and I was vibrating inside. I didn't have the heavy chest/breathing or the dizzyness and I atribute that to the Paxil but I did seek the help of Ativan after the kids went to bed.
HB ended up coming home at midnight as they didn't need him longer but will be gone by the time I get home from work and won't return until after I leave for work. I know I need to tell him how I feel when he's not there but I don't want him to get any crazy ideas that he needs to be home to help as he really needs to be working for his sanity and us financially. Once I don't feel the burdon of solely supporting our family financially is when I can finally get better, as this is what triggered everything 6 months ago.
I guess this post was really for myself to get it out there and maybe if anyone has words of support or wisdom, please share.
Two nights ago there was a shooting 5 houses down (mistaken identity and no one was hurt). There hasn't been anything close to this in the five years we have lived here, it's a pretty safe neighbourhood. Add that to HB working overnight, for the first time, last night and I wasn't doing well...and really still not because I have to do it all over again tonight. I couldn't make any decisions (bed sheets for Paul and pjs for both) and I was vibrating inside. I didn't have the heavy chest/breathing or the dizzyness and I atribute that to the Paxil but I did seek the help of Ativan after the kids went to bed.
HB ended up coming home at midnight as they didn't need him longer but will be gone by the time I get home from work and won't return until after I leave for work. I know I need to tell him how I feel when he's not there but I don't want him to get any crazy ideas that he needs to be home to help as he really needs to be working for his sanity and us financially. Once I don't feel the burdon of solely supporting our family financially is when I can finally get better, as this is what triggered everything 6 months ago.
I guess this post was really for myself to get it out there and maybe if anyone has words of support or wisdom, please share.