Raindrop
05-05-05, 01:22
Hi,
I haven't been on this forum for a while, since my exams finished; I've felt a lot better and have felt like I'm finally beginning to deal with, and recognise my anxiety problems for what they are.
However, I'm back at uni again now, and things are playing up. I'm having less panic attacks, but I'm SO wired, and SO anxious all the time. I'm starting to worry about everything again. I haven't slept for a full night in sooo long. I literally have too much energy to sleep before the early hours of the morning. I'm not eating. I have, maybe, a sandwich a day, or a few crackers. I've been here 2 weeks, and I think finally, the stress and the cr*p I'm putting my body through will finally catch up on me and I'll go pop! My saving grace is popping home at weekends, but my mother wants me to enjoy life here more, and won't let me come home so often.
I can't seem to stop my self-destructive behaviour, even though I know it's bad for me. I'm starting to lose weight (again...), have bags under my eyes and my skin looks dead. My course is really difficult and stressful. All in all, I'm feeling a little overwhelmed.
I feel that going home at weekends will help me to cope better, but I think my mum is right in that I'll never learn to settle and work through my problems if I don't fight it out. I don't know what to do. Save myself in the short term, or try harder for longer, hoping I don't crack up in the meantime?
I haven't been on this forum for a while, since my exams finished; I've felt a lot better and have felt like I'm finally beginning to deal with, and recognise my anxiety problems for what they are.
However, I'm back at uni again now, and things are playing up. I'm having less panic attacks, but I'm SO wired, and SO anxious all the time. I'm starting to worry about everything again. I haven't slept for a full night in sooo long. I literally have too much energy to sleep before the early hours of the morning. I'm not eating. I have, maybe, a sandwich a day, or a few crackers. I've been here 2 weeks, and I think finally, the stress and the cr*p I'm putting my body through will finally catch up on me and I'll go pop! My saving grace is popping home at weekends, but my mother wants me to enjoy life here more, and won't let me come home so often.
I can't seem to stop my self-destructive behaviour, even though I know it's bad for me. I'm starting to lose weight (again...), have bags under my eyes and my skin looks dead. My course is really difficult and stressful. All in all, I'm feeling a little overwhelmed.
I feel that going home at weekends will help me to cope better, but I think my mum is right in that I'll never learn to settle and work through my problems if I don't fight it out. I don't know what to do. Save myself in the short term, or try harder for longer, hoping I don't crack up in the meantime?