billywhizz
06-08-08, 11:25
Hi all, its been a while since i've been on here, an thats not saying i've not needed any help, but i've been really busy movin house.
Well now that im back online i thought it was time to see if any of you lot can offer any support, me and the family moved 4 weeks ago into a lovely cottage in a quiet village and its so perfect, for the first 2 weeks i felt great having stuff to do, and the house is just what we needed.
My anxiety problems have started up again this week, ive suffered for over 3 years now, with GAD, health anx, social anx, and ive been becomming more agoraphobic in the last few months.
This week has been really hectic, we been doin stuff that i havnt done in ages, we been visiting local attractions and plenty of shopping, which i havnt done in months. Now obviously im aware that this is the reason for my higher anxiety levels, i just seem to be fighting a losing battle, when the feelings come over me, i find it so overwhelming, on monday i was close to tears because i was 50 miles from home and i had to wait around for over 2 hours on my own. The panic was unbearable, but it soon passed and i should really be taking the positives from all this, but i cant seem to hold onto the positives, all i can think about is the negatives, the bad moments.
Last nite i had my first panic attack in months, but i seemed to be able to cope with it rather than run around the house sweating and fearing death.
But this morning the anxious feelings are still here, an i keep gettin this same feeling, its like a really sudden fear just completely overwhelms me, it comes from nowhere and i cant quite put my finger on what the thought is about, but its so hard to forget about the feelings.
sorry for the long post, but its really doin my head in now, i just want to beat this, ive been tryin so hard this week at exposing myself to these stressful situations, and its making me feel so much worse, but i no in the long run i will feel better for doin it, its just really hard to keep this motivation up for doin these stress inducing tasks, when all i keep gettin is knocked back by vicous symptoms and these overwhelming thoughts.
hope someone else can relate to this, would be nice to know im not alone, btw im gettin all the normal anx symptoms too, the smothering, the bad stomach, the tension, the wobbly legs, its all happenin at the same time.
thanks for listenin :winks:
Well now that im back online i thought it was time to see if any of you lot can offer any support, me and the family moved 4 weeks ago into a lovely cottage in a quiet village and its so perfect, for the first 2 weeks i felt great having stuff to do, and the house is just what we needed.
My anxiety problems have started up again this week, ive suffered for over 3 years now, with GAD, health anx, social anx, and ive been becomming more agoraphobic in the last few months.
This week has been really hectic, we been doin stuff that i havnt done in ages, we been visiting local attractions and plenty of shopping, which i havnt done in months. Now obviously im aware that this is the reason for my higher anxiety levels, i just seem to be fighting a losing battle, when the feelings come over me, i find it so overwhelming, on monday i was close to tears because i was 50 miles from home and i had to wait around for over 2 hours on my own. The panic was unbearable, but it soon passed and i should really be taking the positives from all this, but i cant seem to hold onto the positives, all i can think about is the negatives, the bad moments.
Last nite i had my first panic attack in months, but i seemed to be able to cope with it rather than run around the house sweating and fearing death.
But this morning the anxious feelings are still here, an i keep gettin this same feeling, its like a really sudden fear just completely overwhelms me, it comes from nowhere and i cant quite put my finger on what the thought is about, but its so hard to forget about the feelings.
sorry for the long post, but its really doin my head in now, i just want to beat this, ive been tryin so hard this week at exposing myself to these stressful situations, and its making me feel so much worse, but i no in the long run i will feel better for doin it, its just really hard to keep this motivation up for doin these stress inducing tasks, when all i keep gettin is knocked back by vicous symptoms and these overwhelming thoughts.
hope someone else can relate to this, would be nice to know im not alone, btw im gettin all the normal anx symptoms too, the smothering, the bad stomach, the tension, the wobbly legs, its all happenin at the same time.
thanks for listenin :winks: