phil06
10-08-08, 21:17
For the last few months I've just felt a bit bleek on things not sure what I want of where I am going.
I'm 19 but 20 soon and just feel not great about being single ages. I feel I duno what I want in a relationship as I've been single that long and it's just made me extra fussy. I just feel hollow to the whole dating scene right now.
I feel sick of it and I know the anxiety has played a part on it as I get horrible thoughts which make me feel crap. I've heard people go through phases where they are single and can't be bothered and I have also heard anxiey can't control who you are as a person but I just can't accept it. Has anybody else experienced this? When the thoughts come on they feel real. I feel bad as about a year ago I was happy in a relationship with my ex g.f (at my peak) and had a job. I have good things now like I have better friends but I just feel a gap missing since I became single. I have started to believe anxiety will now define me as a person and these thoughts will become me.
I know there are some good posts on worrying thoughts on here but can't seem to find them now. I just feel my situation is unique and people say nobody has worries like mine which makes me think all the more that something is wrong. I dunno but the worrying thoughts seem more real day by day even mixed in with dreams and I am obsessed by checking.
I can't get the HOCD thought out my head this fear of turning gay even though I find it horrible and want rid of it I had the same with manic depression for a year and a half. I just can't seem to see a clear picture of the future right now. I also get quite a few of the obsessional thoughts from the symptoms page. How can I deal with this? I have had theropy but I'm positive there are ways to beat it but I can't seem to accept this is anxiety causing thoughts. When these thoughts come on i think I am not well or turning into something I'm not just because these thoughts come to my mind. I refuse to accept any of this as me and know it's anxiety.
I have things I'd like to do like send away for a provisional but live in fear of sending away for it. Even a simple task like making a roll for work would go on the bin as I fear it will go out of date so anxiety is soo controlling. How can I make myself feel better and more positive and realise this is anxiety? Even to talk about it I think it sounds silly.
I'm 19 but 20 soon and just feel not great about being single ages. I feel I duno what I want in a relationship as I've been single that long and it's just made me extra fussy. I just feel hollow to the whole dating scene right now.
I feel sick of it and I know the anxiety has played a part on it as I get horrible thoughts which make me feel crap. I've heard people go through phases where they are single and can't be bothered and I have also heard anxiey can't control who you are as a person but I just can't accept it. Has anybody else experienced this? When the thoughts come on they feel real. I feel bad as about a year ago I was happy in a relationship with my ex g.f (at my peak) and had a job. I have good things now like I have better friends but I just feel a gap missing since I became single. I have started to believe anxiety will now define me as a person and these thoughts will become me.
I know there are some good posts on worrying thoughts on here but can't seem to find them now. I just feel my situation is unique and people say nobody has worries like mine which makes me think all the more that something is wrong. I dunno but the worrying thoughts seem more real day by day even mixed in with dreams and I am obsessed by checking.
I can't get the HOCD thought out my head this fear of turning gay even though I find it horrible and want rid of it I had the same with manic depression for a year and a half. I just can't seem to see a clear picture of the future right now. I also get quite a few of the obsessional thoughts from the symptoms page. How can I deal with this? I have had theropy but I'm positive there are ways to beat it but I can't seem to accept this is anxiety causing thoughts. When these thoughts come on i think I am not well or turning into something I'm not just because these thoughts come to my mind. I refuse to accept any of this as me and know it's anxiety.
I have things I'd like to do like send away for a provisional but live in fear of sending away for it. Even a simple task like making a roll for work would go on the bin as I fear it will go out of date so anxiety is soo controlling. How can I make myself feel better and more positive and realise this is anxiety? Even to talk about it I think it sounds silly.