Purple Fish
14-08-08, 13:56
Hi There,
My story starts back in October 2005 when I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst. After I`d had my scan to confirm this I went into real full on panic for the first time in my life. I felt totally out of control and just wanted the operation to remove it as quicly as possible. I had been told that it was extremely unlikely it was cancerous but the mere mention of the word panicked me. I had blood tests and they came back normal which relieved me. On November 4th 2005 I went into hospital to have the cyst removed. I was told everything went well and it looked benign. I noticed my stomach was still rather swollen and told a nurse that it looked like they hadn`t removed it! I felt rather groggy but put this down to the operation. It wasn`t until the next afternoon that it was picked up that my blood levels were low and they suspected an internal bleed. So back down to theatre I went to have it sorted and a 4 pint blood transfusion. However I recovered very well and the results came back to say the cyst was just fluid filled and benign. They did have to remove the ovary which it was attached to and the fallopian tube. It wasn`t until the beginning of 2007 that I started feeling different. I was at work one day and after having the odd dizziness/lightheadedness which had been going on for a couple of months I broke down and bawled my eyes out in the staff toilets. I felt such despair and had no idea why, it frightened me. I felt so depressed and worried. My friend came with me to the doctors and waited while I went in. He was so understanding and held my hand while I sobbed and told him my story about the cyst. Although I have recovered now it is still so fresh in my head and I think about it every day. My doctor said I was suffering from Post Traumatic Stress and the fact that I feel worse 2 weeks before my period was due to fluctuating hormones. He prescribed Norethisterone (mini pill) and Prozac. I did try weaning myself off Prozac a few months ago but started feeling rubbish again so I`m back on 20mg a day. The dizziness was that worried me the most although it was a combination of stress and hormones. The Prozac has helped with that a great deal. I went through a stage of thinking I`d got a brain tumour! I still have obsessive negative thoughts about dying, cancer, other life threatening illnesses and it doesn`t help when you here of it all the time! There is always someone I know of who`s just been diagnosed with cancer! It all depends on the time of the month with me but sometimes I`ll get a migraine attack or feel really down and think of the worst possible scenario in any situation. When I feel good I`m great, like a laugh and a joke and have the `life`s too short` attitude. I want to be like this all the time and I think I will be one day. I think about what I was like before the cyst and wish I could be like that again. My doctor is very good and does listen. I`m wondering about going to see a counseller (I was offered and refused), they may understand in more depth about this sort of thing.
I think this forum is great though and it does relate to what I`m going through.
Thank you for reading!
Purple Fish :roflmao:
My story starts back in October 2005 when I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst. After I`d had my scan to confirm this I went into real full on panic for the first time in my life. I felt totally out of control and just wanted the operation to remove it as quicly as possible. I had been told that it was extremely unlikely it was cancerous but the mere mention of the word panicked me. I had blood tests and they came back normal which relieved me. On November 4th 2005 I went into hospital to have the cyst removed. I was told everything went well and it looked benign. I noticed my stomach was still rather swollen and told a nurse that it looked like they hadn`t removed it! I felt rather groggy but put this down to the operation. It wasn`t until the next afternoon that it was picked up that my blood levels were low and they suspected an internal bleed. So back down to theatre I went to have it sorted and a 4 pint blood transfusion. However I recovered very well and the results came back to say the cyst was just fluid filled and benign. They did have to remove the ovary which it was attached to and the fallopian tube. It wasn`t until the beginning of 2007 that I started feeling different. I was at work one day and after having the odd dizziness/lightheadedness which had been going on for a couple of months I broke down and bawled my eyes out in the staff toilets. I felt such despair and had no idea why, it frightened me. I felt so depressed and worried. My friend came with me to the doctors and waited while I went in. He was so understanding and held my hand while I sobbed and told him my story about the cyst. Although I have recovered now it is still so fresh in my head and I think about it every day. My doctor said I was suffering from Post Traumatic Stress and the fact that I feel worse 2 weeks before my period was due to fluctuating hormones. He prescribed Norethisterone (mini pill) and Prozac. I did try weaning myself off Prozac a few months ago but started feeling rubbish again so I`m back on 20mg a day. The dizziness was that worried me the most although it was a combination of stress and hormones. The Prozac has helped with that a great deal. I went through a stage of thinking I`d got a brain tumour! I still have obsessive negative thoughts about dying, cancer, other life threatening illnesses and it doesn`t help when you here of it all the time! There is always someone I know of who`s just been diagnosed with cancer! It all depends on the time of the month with me but sometimes I`ll get a migraine attack or feel really down and think of the worst possible scenario in any situation. When I feel good I`m great, like a laugh and a joke and have the `life`s too short` attitude. I want to be like this all the time and I think I will be one day. I think about what I was like before the cyst and wish I could be like that again. My doctor is very good and does listen. I`m wondering about going to see a counseller (I was offered and refused), they may understand in more depth about this sort of thing.
I think this forum is great though and it does relate to what I`m going through.
Thank you for reading!
Purple Fish :roflmao: