Vinny
18-08-08, 08:53
I feel so low today and need some reassurance please.
I took my 23 yr old daughter out at the weekend and bumped into some people I know. I didn't introduce her as my daughter and I feel so, so bad about it now. The reason I didn't is becuase she's put on a lot of weight recently and I felt a little bit embarrased about it. What kind of Mum does that make me??? I love her with all my heart, she is the most gorgeous, lovely daughter I could ever wish for so why did I feel the need to be embarrased? She didn't even notice but I am really beating myself up about it now. I feel so guilty and hate myself for being so selfish and feel I will be punished for being so shallow!!! Once I get these worries in my head I can't seem to get rid of them. I'm going to see a ENT consultant tomorrow about a HA I have about my throat. I know deep down that's the reason I feel down and I have this clever way of transferring one worry to another.
I know I've done wrong by my daughter but if you knew me you would see what a caring, loving Mum I am but right this minute I feel like the worse Mum in the world and am struggling not to cry about it. Please could someone tell me I'm not a bad person:weep:
I took my 23 yr old daughter out at the weekend and bumped into some people I know. I didn't introduce her as my daughter and I feel so, so bad about it now. The reason I didn't is becuase she's put on a lot of weight recently and I felt a little bit embarrased about it. What kind of Mum does that make me??? I love her with all my heart, she is the most gorgeous, lovely daughter I could ever wish for so why did I feel the need to be embarrased? She didn't even notice but I am really beating myself up about it now. I feel so guilty and hate myself for being so selfish and feel I will be punished for being so shallow!!! Once I get these worries in my head I can't seem to get rid of them. I'm going to see a ENT consultant tomorrow about a HA I have about my throat. I know deep down that's the reason I feel down and I have this clever way of transferring one worry to another.
I know I've done wrong by my daughter but if you knew me you would see what a caring, loving Mum I am but right this minute I feel like the worse Mum in the world and am struggling not to cry about it. Please could someone tell me I'm not a bad person:weep: