Emmyj
19-08-08, 20:50
Hello everybody,
A but nervous about doing this, but here goes...
I'm a 29 year old woman, and I've suffered from anxiety since the age of 10-11. My father was quite bad-tempered and took most of his aggression out on me, which left me with all these problems: social phobia, panic attacks, and body dysmorphic disorder. I've never had any help for them, which is why I feel unhappy most of the time...I'm trying to achieve the things I've always wanted to do: I'm hoping to enrol on a TEFL course before the end of the year, and I'd like to finally work my way towards a Phd. I've signed up to do voluntary stuff with Amnesty International, which will allow me to make new friends and perhaps boost my esteem, but it's really tough for me sometimes, and I feel as if my life is a mess. Just a few weeks ago, my boyfriend dumped me, because the relationship was "hard work". I loved him, and feel devastated at the moment. I've never felt so bad. I also feel angry with myself for allowing my anxieties to mess things up so much. I joined NMP because it's time I did something, and also because I'm in need of support from people who understand. I'm so low, and the little confidence I have has been rocked by the things my ex said...I feel unlovable and worry that I'll always be alone, romantically...I know I'm fortunate to have good friends who understand me and care about me. I guess this isn't a very cheerful message, but I hope someone out there will send me some kind words to help me through this horrible time.
Thanks,
E
A but nervous about doing this, but here goes...
I'm a 29 year old woman, and I've suffered from anxiety since the age of 10-11. My father was quite bad-tempered and took most of his aggression out on me, which left me with all these problems: social phobia, panic attacks, and body dysmorphic disorder. I've never had any help for them, which is why I feel unhappy most of the time...I'm trying to achieve the things I've always wanted to do: I'm hoping to enrol on a TEFL course before the end of the year, and I'd like to finally work my way towards a Phd. I've signed up to do voluntary stuff with Amnesty International, which will allow me to make new friends and perhaps boost my esteem, but it's really tough for me sometimes, and I feel as if my life is a mess. Just a few weeks ago, my boyfriend dumped me, because the relationship was "hard work". I loved him, and feel devastated at the moment. I've never felt so bad. I also feel angry with myself for allowing my anxieties to mess things up so much. I joined NMP because it's time I did something, and also because I'm in need of support from people who understand. I'm so low, and the little confidence I have has been rocked by the things my ex said...I feel unlovable and worry that I'll always be alone, romantically...I know I'm fortunate to have good friends who understand me and care about me. I guess this isn't a very cheerful message, but I hope someone out there will send me some kind words to help me through this horrible time.
Thanks,
E