nikkixx
21-08-08, 14:04
Hi everyone,
I've not been on for a while as I had started a new job and seemed to be getting a bit better - not so many hours spent obsessing about MS, heart attacks, BP etc etc but I have recently found out I'm pregnant and my anxiety has come back with a vengence. Some of you might remember but my little girl was stillborn in Dec 2006 then last July I had a miscarriage. I'm 39 now and desperately want this baby but am terrified of everything again now.
I had my check in appointment with the midwife yesterday and spent 3/4 hour arguing with her that I didn't want her to take my blood pressure. Hospitals and doctors terrify me and I knew it would be up. In the end I let her take it and it was 150/84. She was happy with it coz could see the state I was in but now I'm convinced its going to be high all the time and have started getting the old eptopics again.
I am going out of my mind with worry and can feel myself slipping back into despair again.
Please help me
Nikki xx
I've not been on for a while as I had started a new job and seemed to be getting a bit better - not so many hours spent obsessing about MS, heart attacks, BP etc etc but I have recently found out I'm pregnant and my anxiety has come back with a vengence. Some of you might remember but my little girl was stillborn in Dec 2006 then last July I had a miscarriage. I'm 39 now and desperately want this baby but am terrified of everything again now.
I had my check in appointment with the midwife yesterday and spent 3/4 hour arguing with her that I didn't want her to take my blood pressure. Hospitals and doctors terrify me and I knew it would be up. In the end I let her take it and it was 150/84. She was happy with it coz could see the state I was in but now I'm convinced its going to be high all the time and have started getting the old eptopics again.
I am going out of my mind with worry and can feel myself slipping back into despair again.
Please help me
Nikki xx