thevoicewithinme
21-08-08, 15:41
For those of you who know me, you will know that I have been agoraphobic since February of this year, and also that I cannot go out on my own or even off the Estate.
Three weeks ago, my boyfriend brought me a new car (A Shogun) as he knew that I like them and also hoping that having one would encourage me to go out etc.....he also booked us four days away over the Bank Holiday weekend.
Since having my new car, every evening (when he gets in from work) I have driven around the estate and sometimes managed to get out on the main road with my boyfriend in the car with me.
Today however, I managed to drive to the shop on my own (boyfriend followed in his car). Yes I was shaking like a leaf and absolutely terrified when I got there, and yes again I did want to turn around and go back home...but I didn't ... I stuck it out!!
I know its not much, but I did it and each day from now on..my boyfriend is going to follow me, until my confidence grows.
The downside is though, that both my boyfriend and myself know that I am not up to going away this weekend, and his fear is ...that if I have a major panic attack on the journey..that it might set me back...so he has cancelled the weekend away...but there is always next year.
To think that just over three weeks ago I couldn't do any of the above, I am pretty pleased with myself.
Kaz
Three weeks ago, my boyfriend brought me a new car (A Shogun) as he knew that I like them and also hoping that having one would encourage me to go out etc.....he also booked us four days away over the Bank Holiday weekend.
Since having my new car, every evening (when he gets in from work) I have driven around the estate and sometimes managed to get out on the main road with my boyfriend in the car with me.
Today however, I managed to drive to the shop on my own (boyfriend followed in his car). Yes I was shaking like a leaf and absolutely terrified when I got there, and yes again I did want to turn around and go back home...but I didn't ... I stuck it out!!
I know its not much, but I did it and each day from now on..my boyfriend is going to follow me, until my confidence grows.
The downside is though, that both my boyfriend and myself know that I am not up to going away this weekend, and his fear is ...that if I have a major panic attack on the journey..that it might set me back...so he has cancelled the weekend away...but there is always next year.
To think that just over three weeks ago I couldn't do any of the above, I am pretty pleased with myself.
Kaz