Roscoe
13-05-05, 11:08
Well, it's been a few days since I've posted on this forum. The last few weeks have been a mixture of emotions, ups, and downs. Ok, here goes: two weeks ago, I really hit rock bottom at work. I called my doctor and she prescribed me a week of sick leave. Part of that week, I spent by the sea, making long walks, and having big problems eating. I also got some Alpraz, which are basically anti-panic pills.
On Monday, I needed one of those pills, as I felt way too anxious during the morning. My current inability to eat well weakens me, making me more vulnerable. However, I've also started some biorelaxation exercises and they really seem to help. I was really tired yesterday, having to work an early shift and not having slept well, but I managed to work my way through it without the Alpraz. I seem to be getting better at doing breathing exercises, and relaxing my muscles comes more easily as well. Eating seems to be improving too, so I'm really happy with the progress I'm making. This morning I was calm for most of the time, which is a major improvement over the last few weeks. I feel like I'm finally beginning to beat this thing.
Now, If you've read my previous posts, you'll know there's this girl I really like. Actually, I'm totally in love with her. She lives in England, but we keep regular contact with e-mail. My god, she's so amazing. I mailed her two weeks ago, explaining my eating problems and anxiety, and she was totally ok with that. In fact, she is also in love with me!! :) :) :) So I'm sooooooooooooo happy now. I brought up the courage to give her a call last week and it was the best phonecall of my life! We're phoning each other regularly now, and I'm finally seeing her again this Sunday. I get really nervous about it, but it's "good" nerves. It's the exiting kind, not the fearful kind.
Wohooooooooooooooooooo!
On Monday, I needed one of those pills, as I felt way too anxious during the morning. My current inability to eat well weakens me, making me more vulnerable. However, I've also started some biorelaxation exercises and they really seem to help. I was really tired yesterday, having to work an early shift and not having slept well, but I managed to work my way through it without the Alpraz. I seem to be getting better at doing breathing exercises, and relaxing my muscles comes more easily as well. Eating seems to be improving too, so I'm really happy with the progress I'm making. This morning I was calm for most of the time, which is a major improvement over the last few weeks. I feel like I'm finally beginning to beat this thing.
Now, If you've read my previous posts, you'll know there's this girl I really like. Actually, I'm totally in love with her. She lives in England, but we keep regular contact with e-mail. My god, she's so amazing. I mailed her two weeks ago, explaining my eating problems and anxiety, and she was totally ok with that. In fact, she is also in love with me!! :) :) :) So I'm sooooooooooooo happy now. I brought up the courage to give her a call last week and it was the best phonecall of my life! We're phoning each other regularly now, and I'm finally seeing her again this Sunday. I get really nervous about it, but it's "good" nerves. It's the exiting kind, not the fearful kind.
Wohooooooooooooooooooo!