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[chloesuzi]

Hello my name is Chloe. I have joined because I am frequently getting Panic Attacks and I think I have SA. I was crying yesterday and grieving for the poor child I can now recall being so emapathic, yet unable to say no, and unable to look after itself, and being taken advantage of....and ohhh the anger and frustration that brought about made me do some bad things.....I had corporal punishemnt frequently as a resullt. I wish I could go back in time and comfort myself, and tell my younger self not to worry so. How stupid and ignorant of myself I've been. I've shut those feelings away for decades, and only really joined up the milestones in my life this week when its all come to a head. My difficulties with other people, my inability to say no, lest I hurt anothers feelings..to the detriment of myself. I am seeing the GP tomorrow (today) for the first time regarding this. I hope I can at least get some kind of diagosis, so that at least I can start to address the problems. I hope they don't think I'm crazy as I've been over there so much lately that I seem to be making up for the years when I would never see a doctor at all....I was so much in denial about so many things back then.

This site is a blessing, thanks for letting me join. I hope I can help others too.

Chloe

[marie1974]

hi chloe and welcome to nmp, im sorry you have been through so much and the doc will not think u r mad hun honest.

my partner had a bad childhood and was beaten by his mum alot, kicked down stairs, punched etc and as a result now he is very nervouse, insecure and finds it very hard saying no to people and some people will take advantage of that. he is 35 now and still suffers to this day and has ibs too.

i am sure some counselling will help you lots although it will bring painful stuff to the surface that you will need to talk about and deal with but honest hun, from my own experience too it really helps and only when u have dealt with it will u be able to move on and be happy, so i think it would be really good for you.

also i find exercise a huge help i brisk walk most days and walk through any anger or upset i feel andonce i finished and at home i feel better. it will tire you at first but after few weeks you will feel motivated, positive, lots more energy etc and i beat my depression through exercise 7 years ago and never had it since.

you will get lots of great advice and support here and make new friends too. hugs xxx

[milly jones]

welcome hunny

hope that u find some peace in nmp

milly xxx

[Patty]

Hi Chloe,:)

:welcome: to NMP. It's great that you've joined. There is so much information & help here.

All the best xx :bighug1:

[pooh]

HIya and welcome along to NMP

Pooh x

[alexis]

hi and a big welcome,xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[carly123]

Huge welcome,

Correct me if I am wrong but it sounds from your post that you have suffered some abuse in your childhood, which it seems is having a big effect on you now. If this is the case, I feel I have to say (because I honestly care) that there are charitable organisations which specialise in these things and I think you may benefit from getting some specialised counselling/advice.
HOWEVER for goodness sake don't leave US cos there are an incredibly diverse mix of people and problems here and without a doubt day or night there will be someone here who will, at the very least, listen and care about you.
This site has helped, I would guess easily, thousands of people around the globe and it will help you, too.
I may be criticised for saying this but I would not agree with any sort of anger management in your case - the root cause is what needs to be tackled- although techniques for routing your anger are well worth learning.
I hope you feel at home here, you've taken an important step.xx

[carly123]

I meant to say about the doctor...
more than likely if you have already been going often he/she has already formed a conclusion that you have an anxiety problem. But you can pretty much bet your life they do NOT think you're mad.
There are plenty of docs out there who are sympathetic and understanding towards these issues, and if you feel yours isn't you have every right to change docs.

[Alisonj]

Welcome!

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Chloe,

Welcome to the site. Many here will understand how you are feeling and you will get support. Glad you found us.

Take care,

Laura

[nomorepanic]

Hi (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=34460&page=5) Chloe

:welcome: aboard and lovely to see you here.

Hope we can be of some help

[Lindalou64]

Hello Chloe And Welcome , Wish Ya Well, Linda

[lorac]

Hi Chloe

Welcome to the site I am sure you will meet many nice people on here who will offer good support and advice.

Take care

Carol

[chloesuzi]

Thank you very much for the welcoming messages, I really appreciate them :) I saw the GP (a locum, not the 2 I have regularly seen before unfortunately). Didn't give me a diagnosis as such, but did prescribe Propranolol 10mg. I have been taking them as & when I feel the need & they do seem to help prevent the initial symptoms escalating into a full PA.

By reading a bit more from this site, I was able to identify 3 books which I had sent to me from Amazon (I hope I used the referrers link correctly:

Self-Help for your Nerves - Dr. Claire Weeks
Feel the Fear and do it Anyway - Susan Jeffers
The Little Book of Confidence - Susan Jeffers

The last one is small and I carry it with me wherever I go. It has actually helped me several times already when I was feeling overwhelmed. I got quite upset when I couldn't find it one day, and sat down in a chair realising I was on the precipice of the old familiar spiral of negative feelings. Fortunately my Daughter noted my mood change & rushed to find & hand me the book. That was so sweet & thoughtful of her, I was so grateful as it stopped the spiral in its tracks.

I have also read the other two, and will be re-reading them as there is a great deal of useful help and information contained within - almost too much to take in first time round ! Also the books have some practical steps which I want to take to begin healing myself.

Best wishes

Chloe