Piscian Daydreamer
15-05-05, 22:09
Hi all,....
I am pretty much repeating what i said in the 'introduce yourself' section as i am new. However, this topic is related to OCD, therefore, i would like to share my problem with you lot!
Have any of you ever suffered from an obssessive - popularity disorder? I see myself as a very popular person with lots and lots of friends, and good friends. I go out all the time too........ however, i cannot be happy - i need more. I cannot stop obsessing about my popularity. Its like there is something in my mind telling me I HAVE TO BE MORE POPULAR. Every friday night when i wanna go out and none of my friends ring me, i almost go insane, even thought i know they are just chiilin at home! I also worry that my friends are out having a good time without me. At university the problem is much worse. I, in general, am a popular person on the course. I am part of a big cru, one of the leaders........... however,,,,, i hold this desperation to keep recruiting more members and making the clan bigger. I am desperate to be leader, i am a control freak.... i need attention - although nobody actually knows i am like this!
I am always thinking about 'MY LIFE' and constantly comparing it to my friends lives. The fact that i havent got a girlfriend and i am still a virgin at the age of 19 (but i am good looking) overtakes my mind greatly! But it doesnt even matter???
I am so obsessed with having lots of friends that i keep doing a mind map on paper listing all of my friends just so i can check visualy that i am popular. How sad is that??
Thanks for listening.
MB
I am pretty much repeating what i said in the 'introduce yourself' section as i am new. However, this topic is related to OCD, therefore, i would like to share my problem with you lot!
Have any of you ever suffered from an obssessive - popularity disorder? I see myself as a very popular person with lots and lots of friends, and good friends. I go out all the time too........ however, i cannot be happy - i need more. I cannot stop obsessing about my popularity. Its like there is something in my mind telling me I HAVE TO BE MORE POPULAR. Every friday night when i wanna go out and none of my friends ring me, i almost go insane, even thought i know they are just chiilin at home! I also worry that my friends are out having a good time without me. At university the problem is much worse. I, in general, am a popular person on the course. I am part of a big cru, one of the leaders........... however,,,,, i hold this desperation to keep recruiting more members and making the clan bigger. I am desperate to be leader, i am a control freak.... i need attention - although nobody actually knows i am like this!
I am always thinking about 'MY LIFE' and constantly comparing it to my friends lives. The fact that i havent got a girlfriend and i am still a virgin at the age of 19 (but i am good looking) overtakes my mind greatly! But it doesnt even matter???
I am so obsessed with having lots of friends that i keep doing a mind map on paper listing all of my friends just so i can check visualy that i am popular. How sad is that??
Thanks for listening.
MB