LisaS
16-05-05, 17:45
hi all!
I'm not really sure i should be posting in this bit but i guess it is a success for me! I always feel i'm not worthy yet to be in here!
as some of you may know, i was going to devon for a long weekend - 4 hrs away from where i am, to see my mum.
After crying the whole way round the M25, chewing my fingers to the bone - we got there... I felt such a lot of anxiety for the first day or so,being away from my 'safe' home and never thought i would get thru it, but there were times when i had a really great time. We even went out for dinner - soemthing i've been dreading.. and i did that also! I even laughed on occasions and forgot all my worries. (apart from usual mother driving my completely nuts as usual-why do mothers have the ability to do that!)
:D
however..[Sigh...] why is it, as soon as you feel good you think, oh i feel good but what about my anxiety/depression and WHAM there it is again!!! Ive been reading lots of positive books and trying to keep myself 'up' but it really takes some hard work..
Now i'm back home and so glad to be back.. but i'm like.. what shall i do now? my head just says, just live.. its like i'm almost waiting for something bad to happen!
anyway.. i went on a trip! i'll enjoy that for the moment. Thanks guys for all your support! i just had so many things going round my head when i was feeling bad, that i'd read from you lovely people. I even made my hubby play the word association game with me for 3 hours on the way there to keep my mind off it! poor sod.
thanks again,
Lisa
xxx
I'm not really sure i should be posting in this bit but i guess it is a success for me! I always feel i'm not worthy yet to be in here!
as some of you may know, i was going to devon for a long weekend - 4 hrs away from where i am, to see my mum.
After crying the whole way round the M25, chewing my fingers to the bone - we got there... I felt such a lot of anxiety for the first day or so,being away from my 'safe' home and never thought i would get thru it, but there were times when i had a really great time. We even went out for dinner - soemthing i've been dreading.. and i did that also! I even laughed on occasions and forgot all my worries. (apart from usual mother driving my completely nuts as usual-why do mothers have the ability to do that!)
:D
however..[Sigh...] why is it, as soon as you feel good you think, oh i feel good but what about my anxiety/depression and WHAM there it is again!!! Ive been reading lots of positive books and trying to keep myself 'up' but it really takes some hard work..
Now i'm back home and so glad to be back.. but i'm like.. what shall i do now? my head just says, just live.. its like i'm almost waiting for something bad to happen!
anyway.. i went on a trip! i'll enjoy that for the moment. Thanks guys for all your support! i just had so many things going round my head when i was feeling bad, that i'd read from you lovely people. I even made my hubby play the word association game with me for 3 hours on the way there to keep my mind off it! poor sod.
thanks again,
Lisa
xxx