Gregor
31-08-08, 03:59
Hi,
I am beginning to run out of excuses for not wanting to go out, etc. My wife, who's totally supportive of me, is forever trying to get me to go out, to places i know is just too much for me. Whenever the subject comes up, in my mind i'm always trying to come up with an excuse as to why i can't or don't want to go!
My main failing is trying to cross roads. For some reason this has been my ultimate nemesis no matter how well i'm doing. It's always been a problem, although i had been doing much better until recently. An incident where i had a complete anxiety attack in the middle of the road and collapsed right there has totally shaken me. I can't seem to get back to where i was a few months ago. Now, crossing roads seems an impossible task to me, more so than ever before. Just thinking about it makes me feel so bad, i can't imagine ever being able to cross them again. I'm still okay crossing very minor roads if i have someone with me, but the thought of going anything bigger just freaks me out.
I don't want to keep saying 'no' to going out, but i can't bring myself to do so - unless i know the exact itinery beforehand (where we're going, how we'll get there - by bus (how will we get to the bus stop?) when we get there, where do we go then? any roads to cross? we have to get taxi, etc) My wife says i shouldn't be thinking about all this and she'd be right, but it's just important to me so there's no surprises.
Sorry for this rant, i just feel i'm in a never-ending cycle at the moment.
Gregor
I am beginning to run out of excuses for not wanting to go out, etc. My wife, who's totally supportive of me, is forever trying to get me to go out, to places i know is just too much for me. Whenever the subject comes up, in my mind i'm always trying to come up with an excuse as to why i can't or don't want to go!
My main failing is trying to cross roads. For some reason this has been my ultimate nemesis no matter how well i'm doing. It's always been a problem, although i had been doing much better until recently. An incident where i had a complete anxiety attack in the middle of the road and collapsed right there has totally shaken me. I can't seem to get back to where i was a few months ago. Now, crossing roads seems an impossible task to me, more so than ever before. Just thinking about it makes me feel so bad, i can't imagine ever being able to cross them again. I'm still okay crossing very minor roads if i have someone with me, but the thought of going anything bigger just freaks me out.
I don't want to keep saying 'no' to going out, but i can't bring myself to do so - unless i know the exact itinery beforehand (where we're going, how we'll get there - by bus (how will we get to the bus stop?) when we get there, where do we go then? any roads to cross? we have to get taxi, etc) My wife says i shouldn't be thinking about all this and she'd be right, but it's just important to me so there's no surprises.
Sorry for this rant, i just feel i'm in a never-ending cycle at the moment.
Gregor