rocklover
02-09-08, 12:15
I had a massive meltdown (nearly hysterical) this morning and felt unable to get into work. Luckily for me (though not my poor Mum), I live with my parents at the moment and Mum was lovely, made me get the appt for today and even came in with me.
I broke down into tears in front of the dr (which I NEVER do) and was totally embarrassed, but I forced myself to tell her that I wasn't coping with life in general (but mainly getting to work). So she has signed me off for a week and has upped my dose of Amitriptyline to 100mg a day, I am hoping this will help as I feel so terrible that I have let myself and others down.
Am worried about telling my boyfriend as he might think I am a complete loser, he gets depressed, but never breaks down, just carries on regardless. I had to admit to myself today that I cannot do that or I will get more ill than I am now. I have some soul searching and decision making to do this week, I have also been put on the waiting list for counselling by the dr. I could really do with some advice as I am so confused in my head, I honestly don't know where to start to get myself back into the land of the living.
I broke down into tears in front of the dr (which I NEVER do) and was totally embarrassed, but I forced myself to tell her that I wasn't coping with life in general (but mainly getting to work). So she has signed me off for a week and has upped my dose of Amitriptyline to 100mg a day, I am hoping this will help as I feel so terrible that I have let myself and others down.
Am worried about telling my boyfriend as he might think I am a complete loser, he gets depressed, but never breaks down, just carries on regardless. I had to admit to myself today that I cannot do that or I will get more ill than I am now. I have some soul searching and decision making to do this week, I have also been put on the waiting list for counselling by the dr. I could really do with some advice as I am so confused in my head, I honestly don't know where to start to get myself back into the land of the living.