Alisonj
04-09-08, 03:48
Had to go to the ER tonight for a UTI because my doc is on vacation for 2 weeks. I was in a room when the nurse came in and said "we need to move you to another room" As we walked out of the room the ambulance attendants were coming in with a man in full arrest. They were working super hard on him. They put me in a room across the hall and then they sounded the Code Blue alarms.
Suddenly I was 14 again and reliving my dads death. I felt horrible, starting having major anxiety and then the panic set in. Thankfully the alarms stopped and I think they brought him back. But they were talking about how bad of shape he was in and that someone had to tell his wife. I remembered the look on the doctors face that came and told us my dad was dead.
It has been years, why is this affecting me so bad. I finally got hom after 4 hours or so and I am a mess. I am beyond anxious and shaking and cant stop crying:weep: :weep: :weep: :weep:
Suddenly I was 14 again and reliving my dads death. I felt horrible, starting having major anxiety and then the panic set in. Thankfully the alarms stopped and I think they brought him back. But they were talking about how bad of shape he was in and that someone had to tell his wife. I remembered the look on the doctors face that came and told us my dad was dead.
It has been years, why is this affecting me so bad. I finally got hom after 4 hours or so and I am a mess. I am beyond anxious and shaking and cant stop crying:weep: :weep: :weep: :weep: